Wednesday, 13 December 2017


How extremist fundamentalists create fundamentalists from otherwise community oriented optimists. 
Or, an immovable state vs an infinite flow.

Being a writer, it is expected that the intention is for the choice words to be released for public consumption. I question: When I write something I am happy with, is it self indulgent vanity to want to share it?
Others might like the words. Certainly the message is something that has been bottling up, brewing, trying to get out for some time. Expressing it concisely is rewarding because then I can move on from it and develop, can finally let go of that issue.

Sometimes the best words are result of conversation and discussion, of being questioned about life by people curious, dedicated and courageous to get to know me and to let me get to know them. Healers, deeply involved in discussing the topics which are both taboo and yet are cultural money-spinners because we all have dealing with and issues with those topics, which society tells us we must not air in public.

Society is an abuser, period.
We need to delve into the complex and dirty emotional mental experiences, that is what life is, that is how we learn, progress, grow. Internal mechanics processing external affectors.

I do not have consent to copy/paste quotes of private conversations and neither is it needed, if accredited anonymously. Such conversation is catalyst for revelation and necessary to put the revelation into context.

Those are the best people to speak with, the wisdom keepers, the healers valued for their insight. For those are the shamen amongst us who set us right, by gently shaming us into facing ourselves, by use of perceptive inquiry. Estcheemah describes them as the Zero Chiefs, those whose unecessary names will be forgotten by the long history and yet whose work is fundamentally important to us, to individuals. Those of sage kindness who reach out to help us, to mend our communities without singing about it from the rooftops.

This is why I opened this text with a musing about vanity. I want to say thank you by sharing the wisdom provoked from me with others who might benefit from the healing. It feels good to release tension by putting into words that which has bothered me.

Writing does not change the situation at hand but it helps comprehend about it, to deal with it and to share it with others who may resonate.
It's personal, hence the puzzle of whether sharing it is a self indulgent act even when intended as an example of situations so many of us identify with.


I look back at my teachers. In the academy I was fortunate to have had two, both of whom were criticised by the academy for not being professional and academic enough to please the state, and yet who taught me vastly more than any other working through the state machinery.

Outside of the academy, many teachers, mentors, guardians, none of whom would have stood a hells hope of securing professional academic employment even had they wanted and attempted that.

And then I think of all the conformist so-called teachers, those who ticked all of the academic boxes, were recognised by institutions as model professionals, yet who taught me nothing at all of any value and indeed if anything generally discouraged me from pursuing education at all.

There is a reason why the word 'academic' is properly defined in the dictionaries as 'irrelevant'.

If there is one lesson the educational system and life outside of it has taught me, this is it.


The other great teacher is attitude. By attitude, I thanked my narcissistic abuser for helping me to become master of zen. Without which petty tyrants I would remain a blunt edge, useless and full up of all knowing potential.

Bonsai is the bowl of restriction, not the perfectly formed tree it contains. Stunting is a dangerous and thrilling act of endangerment which improves personal esteem, though only when the balance is perfect. Else it is foolish bravado of no real substance, an illusion, a delusion. That balance comes from the spirit of the tree, not from the clippers which shape it. Thus it is natural to kill and replace those who we surpass lest we become them.

Attitude is developed whenever a voice of a deeper truth is stifled by authoritarianism domination. The patience of a patient patient grows from an injured juror who knows to be the ultimate decision maker even after the storm has been weathered and passed. When the moment is right, the most effective action is at once, minimal and with farthest reaching consequence. Consicion is consciously refined by confinement. This is attitude. Meantime, breath.

We fight totalitarianism not head-on for it is formidable, but by biding our time, studying, observing, learning the shape of it through hardships inflicted. Usually by this method we watch it fall of its own internal corruption long before we are positioned to become an effective counterstrike. Meantime, breath.


 "Usually you'll know a tree by its fruit. 
Likewise, you'll always know the kind of person you're dealing with 
by their vibration/voice/energy;
 that which they choose to rebroadcast into the world."
Julia Howe

Clever Fox Media


Sunday, 26 November 2017



"Trap him in a tree" 

said it, 
said she, 
the hiss-embodied voice, 

A potion flew 
through air cold 
as ice sharper 
than a kiss-blade knife. 

Green it landed, 
soothed the flesh though 
fears turned churning, 
 burning mesh; 

its sigil 
carving deep 
through meat, 
a ritual mark, 
its work complete. 

These words are not mine.
(Were they ever?)

They came unbidden 
of their own accord, 
entranced into a world outside 
the regular absurd. 

This night 
"our work is done" 
say they, and l
eave me to sway, 
dizzy at the fade 
of a memory 
of what has been. 

A spell upon me 
cast by looking, at 
art on my screen 
from a place I have been.

The art is not mine 
either, it comes 
from the pen 
of Mark Simpson, 
better known as Jock 
for the script of Scott Snyder: 
the Wytches.

I have not as yet
insomuch as
opened the book.

But given, 
I have to.

UPDATE 13.12.17

it arrived
a week ago
by post.
as yet
i have not dared
to look inside.



Monday, 16 October 2017

Real Reason

This blog continues the narrative of Irreason.

Real Reason

If you are having to resort to using reason (agenda) to achieve balance, you are not in balance. If you are not in balance, the assumption that reason will get you there is an unbalanced assumption. Another word for 'unbalanced assumption' is 'irrational'. It is irrational that the use of reason will result in harmony.

When you let go of all that, detach from all mental diversions, and accept the moment as it is, and simply be, not owned by a specific idiom, context, condition: that is the only way to return to balance. Harmony cannot be created by forcing diversions upon a natural equilibrium. If a thing achieves perfect balance, all reasons dissolve, all agendas vanish.

Anybody who is using reason and promoting the use of reason as a dominating faculty above the nature of letting go and accepting and permitting peace to occur naturally, is not functioning as an agent of harmony but as an agent of perpetuating disruptions. Why choose one imbalance over another unless it is to exploit for gain? 

"Problems cannot be solved by the level of awareness that created them." Albert Einstein

Wednesday, 4 October 2017

Case Study Notes

This blog is extension of Case Study

1 discrediting their strawman

When person B redefines person A.

You are re-labelling me for the purpose of your own super-ego -controlled idiom.

So, when you look at me, you do not see me.

Instead you see your own delusion. 

It is not based on reality, of me being what I am.

Then what happens next is whenever I act in a way that does not conform to your idiom, you persuade yourself and anybody else who believes you unquestioningly, your zombies aka flying monkeys, that I am broken and 'acting uncharacteristically'.

You convince people I have gone mad or that I am up to something suspicious.

All because you have no real interest in having a genuine relationship with me and getting to know who I really am.

2 officially already knowing you better than you do

How can anybody else be more of an expert on me than me?

When I am my intuition, when I am most true to myself there is no mental conditioning at all.
It is pure raw reflex from the soul.
It is not social programming.

3 confidence is self-worth they seek to destroy

Standing up for myself is not an act of rebellion.

It is a Human Right. 

4 personal detail

The State workers prejudice against me for acting on my degree level state education (in a department which the fascists have since shut down).

I was taught Creative Thinking. 

"Outside of the box" mentality and a "of monetary value" skill set.

These two things are inseparable. Part of the education is to recognize that only copyists, not originals, segregate and exclude creative being and ingenuity. That art history has showed us the most valuable works of art come from the pioneers, from the non-conformists. 

How to be a pioneer and a non-conformist is necessary to create the most valuable works of art, equally as much as developing the practical skill set of physically producing art. 

Rich Man

"Unmarried Men Are ‘A Problem’ For Society"

Out of touch with reality Tory MP Iain Duncan Smith

South Wales there are two types of women.

Women who react to the word 'marriage' the same way they react to the slime beast oozing into the room. They back off and disappear.

Women who hate men because no man has voluntarily asked them for marriage.

There are two sub-types of these:

First, most common, are stage three Disney Princess Syndrome, when the cartoon expectation bubble has burst and their man-hate prevents them from going out and getting laid, which they need.

Second, sexually experienced women who can get sex at the drop of a skirt and to whom men are an object like a dildo, a wallet, a taxi, perhaps even social positioning. Do not be mistaken that they regard men as human beings. These women were raised into disposable consumerism and that's what men are. This subgroup crosses both original categories to also include the 'marriage=slimebeast' type.

Both these types of women make an exception to one thing:
Rich Man.

To all other men which is literally 99% of men, it triggers 2 warning bells.

Warning bell 1: she wants to marry my money, not me.The 'it is vampire' bell.

Warning bell 2: being secondary to a fictional entity and being secondary to that rich bastard means she is so far up herself she can not even see it. She is going to sleep around behind his back anyway. The 'it is crazy' bell.

Of these 99% of men there are perhaps even as much as half, who decide that being secondary to a fictional entity is worth the pursuit if it means mommy-figure-and-sex.

That 1% rich guy, he don't care. He can afford to throw money at her in exchange for sexetera. He is sleeping around behind her back too because he won't lose her if he gets caught and if he does, so what he can afford to.

The thing about marriage, it gets in the way of the quality part of a relationship because you do not need to be married to have a quality relationship.

Then you get the guys who can see all of the above and decide that playing the game of getting money to get a girl is stupid waste of time. These guys are now called MGTOW because men are redefining the rules of the game vs femdom - at last. Previously these guys were simply lame, or misogynists, or any other insult women could think of.

These type of men can clearly see the big difference between sexetera and marriage. In the old days these were called 'the real men'. When one of these guys chooses her, in the old days she knew he meant it, she was grateful for his attention and worked as hard as he did to be compatible. Those types of women are called 'real women' and although rare, those are the ones you want to marry. Reality is, most guys won't find them because most women won't be them.

So the reality is, men have got to change the system and the way society works. It is traditionally the purpose of men to do this. Women have been doing it for several generations and it has fucked everything up for everyone, yes even themselves. They have proved to be incapable of equality because as soon as they get anywhere close, they start abusing men.

MGTOW is men taking time out to assess the situation. It will be followed by MWHGIT Men Who Have Got It Together (MWGITs or simply GITs). This generation of men will collectively have a strategy, which works, to put men and women where men and women both function best in relation to each other. It recognizes that with individual responsibility comes stop-blagging-me, and with individual respectability comes stop-badgering-me (stop bitching/bullying me). SBM is the future of relationship protocols.

Sex is MUTUAL it does not mean one of us paying the other one for it. We both SHARE pleasure and if it works, if it is any good and worth doing regularly with you to the exclusion of all others, or inclusive of selected thirds, or in preference to videogameheaven, it means ignoring all the bad advice from society, your jealous sister, your controlling parents, your abusive ex-partner who probably gave you what you deserved so shut up about it, and recognize that when men are sexually active their metabolism functions a certain way, and that going against it is going against nature. It is not about sub-dom, it is about switch and mutuality. It is definitely not about brat.

In the old days the word marriage did not mean paperwork contract with the state or religion. It meant regular sex with a person so the two could explore the empowerment which good sex brings. Think about who controls that energy and what you do with it. It's YOUR energy, not the partners, not the states, and if you are mixing it with a person - this is where compatibility is important. In the old days the word sin meant living without sex.

Everything else to do with marriage is about friendship. Union, partnership, sharing resources, caring about the partner as much as you care about yourself, mutual respect, communication. Growth from stability.

What Ian Duncan Smith is talking about is that all men should be secondary to a fictional entity, which is slavery to a delusion, which is slavery full stop. Fuck that twat, why is anybody listening to him anyway? 1% Rich Man perhaps? See how that works?


If things are going that well with someone, marriage is not something to throw into the mix anyway because why risk a good thing?

Case Study


A diagnosis is an opinion. It is not a fact. It is not a Truth.

A professional diagnosis is a professional opinion. It is not a fact. It is not a Truth.

When a person claims that an opinion is inaccurate because it does not accurately describe that person, one of two things can happen.

First, preferably, the person is listened to and the situation re-evaluated. This is called common sense and falls within the broader concept of humanitarianism.

Secondly, the person is ignored and the more accurate information is irrelevant to the professional diagnosis. This is called professional misconduct. In some industries it is called neglect of duty. It is called prejudice and falls within the broader context of abuse.


When a person listens to a rumour and accepts it as a Truth or as a fact without first getting to the bottom of the situation, that person is not respectable. In psychiatry it is a recognised to be a mental disorder falling within a spectrum which includes cognitive dissonance and disbelief syndrome. If they act on the misinformation without requesting clarification from source, such people are recognised to be not fully functioning human beings.

When a person accepts somebody else’ opinion to be a fact or a Truth, they are not doing their own thinking. They immediately become an agent of the original lie. They become party to the corruption. They are now a component in an abuse network.


Identifying the original source becomes imperative in situations 1 and 2 above.


Once having identified that a person has lied and that a network exist to expand upon that lie, it is called corruption. All of the people involved in permeating the lie are also corrupt.

In legal terms it is called a conspiracy. It is a criminal offence. To permeate a lie from a position of authority is called fraud if there is paperwork involved, also professional misconduct, misconduct in office, and/or neglect of duty.

Such a person undermines not only their own authority but also the respectability of all positions of authority. That person should be a target of concern by all other authorities.

*in our case study, a professional criminal manages successfully to divert attention away from their own corruption by making a claim that the victim of the corruption is the person whom everybody should be suspicious of. The criminal does this to maintain their hold on office and ensure their personal income. Other conspirators in the abuse network who are also fabricating paperwork to entrench the original lie continue to pursue the course of action of discrediting the original target whenever the original target speaks out against it. It has a snowball/avalanche effect which extends to the discredited individual being set up by the authorities to criminalise him, thus further undermining his outspoken Truth.


What makes a person a professional is that they profess to be an acting agent of a principle.

The principle of GP’s for example, general practioners also known as Doctors if they have studied to achieve an expensive piece of paper award called a doctorate although this is not essential to be an active GP and hold a registered office, much the same way a teaching qualification is not essential to be a teacher. The principle of doctors is to doctor situations, which means to alter them. A GP is not a professionally qualified Healer which is a very, very different occupation and principle.

The principle of the GP is to unquestioningly do what the computer tells him to do. The academic text books are also based on opinions and solidified using case studies. The opinions based on observational studies of groups of people somewhere else in the world at some other time under different conditions. In terms of science, that is not proper scientific protocol.

Common Sense and Humanitarianism indicates that if, as in our scenario, the case study is a target of abuse by a criminal network operating through the system, and whose opinion has been undermined and replaced officially by a misdiagnosis, that the existence of case studies is irrelevant if one is attempting to establish the truth of any individual situation. Case studies are inaccurate to the reality of situations and exist to cover up corruption. They are not facts. They are not Truths. Case studies exist to maintain a source of income for professionals in office. They do not exist to heal people for the simple reason that healing people involves actually listening to what that person is saying.

“It takes one bad apple to spoil the barrel.” Ancient Folk Wisdom

See also: Case Study Notes


"Developing 'the suspension of disbelief' as a reflex continuum became imperative, not to live out a more comfortable delusion but to decondition the perceptions from deeply entrenched 'educational' and media dogmatic version of reality conforming to the control state."

The faculty of reason, revered unquestioningly as a preferable state of functioning, does not consciously factor that by classic definition a reason is a purpose, a purpose is an agenda. Being reasonable does not mean being balanced (nor humanitarian). It means agent to an often unspecified agenda. It might be reasonable but it is not rational to disclude so many factors which affect scenarios simply because they deter from achieving an agenda. Ergo reason is irrationality.

Unlike so-called 'primitive cultures' Western cognitive perception does not educate regarding the faculties of equality, empathy and of responsibility. Westerners are discouraged from accepting how vastly different any alternative mode of cognitive development might result.

We should question, why am I being encouraged to be reasonable rather than balanced and humane? It is a basic common-sense call. Thus we can see clearly that reasonable behavior and common sense behavior are distinct and segregated into two camps.

The late 18th to early 21st centuries have been described by Western academia as 'the Age of Reason' during which the veneration not of Mind but of a specific Mind Set (a set mind, which means an unyielding, stubborn and rigid mind). From this we can identify that for more than two centuries the domination of a specific form of consciousness to the extent of repression of all other forms of consciousness has held sway throughout Western Imperialism. The consequences that it still does so today involve the denial that any other form of consciousness has merit.

In terms of anthropology this puts Western civilization at a disadvantage of comprehending motivations and understandings not only of our own ancestors and their cultures and interactions, it also induces a xenophobia toward anything not-us. For this reason, more advanced life-forms visiting from other dimensions and worlds do so discretely."

-excerpt from How Not To Be A Sheeple by snakeappletree, 
Ordo Octopia publications (currently not in print)

This narrative continues as Real Reason.
It's theme relates directly to this: A Point To Jude From

Tuesday, 26 September 2017

Good Cyber

What makes good cyber?

Following the 'what makes a good blog’ blog in which it came down to originality and lack of pop-ups and adverts - pop-ups and adverts immediately trigger the ‘close this tab’ reflex - here the theme expands through ‘what makes a good game’ blog.

> Have I played this before?
YES it is a clone
NO it is original and unique

> Is the game built of commercial effects available to anyone who has funds and can access the market?
YES it is made by throwing money at it
         to create what in the music industry is called ‘industry loops’ - remixing someone else’s tunes.
NO it is original and unique

Already you can recognise the common theme.
What makes a good game is that it is Original and Unique.

>Will I play it again? Does the game draw me in? Is it addictive?
YES winner.
NO don’t waste people’s time with any more of this shit, ever

The discussion ends here.

Oh one more thing, the tab.

>Is it worth 10 dollars, less than 5 dollars, free, or more than 25 dollars?
These are the four categories of games.

FREE it’s someone’s pet project built as a learning curve and for passion of the project, which they want everyone to share and remember their name/logo so they can get hired in the industry. If it is good, WIN. If it is shit, don’t waste people’s time.

Less than 5 dollars: For most people this is the same as for Free. If not then you have to stop gaming and start coding your own.

10 dollars: A fling. A distraction. Its worth an hours wage to a minimum wage worker and should take longer than that to complete. Most indie games should probably be in this category. That’s a lot of scope. Includes many genres of which the best games typically defy genre-categorization. Ultimately all games in this category are a waste of time to remind you to stop gaming and start coding your own.

25+ dollars: This game is an investment. Professional game industry level entertainment. Careers built this. More than one person at a time. This has got to give braingasm on a regular basis. For the price it’s better than a hooker otherwise it’s the last game this development team are going to produce. As a game developer you will not enter this category until you have produced multiples in all other categories. You have to be able to give multiple braingasms to all categories of gamers on a regular basis.

And then there’s Kevin Flynn.

Be like Kevin Flynn. 

Pioneers do not copy the world as it is. 
Pioneers create new worlds and they do it their own way. 
Except for the Bridge at Khazad Dum bit. 
That was an homage. Obviously. 

copyright image shared non-profit within international fair use policy for educational purposes fully accredited to Disney
See, its the same thing

Monday, 18 September 2017

Seeing Dots

Imagine that how wide your perceptions are can be measured with dots, as if along a ruler, regularly spaced, moving both left and right directions outward sideways from the focal front point, straight forward. This dot we measure as zero. The next one either side are both numbered one, the next two, and so on. 

A person with very limited perceptions can only see so far, only knows the numbers say up to three or four. There is a limited possible number of patterns, combinations, inside this limited box. A small grid. Even if we connect every dot to every dot within three or four to either side of zero, the circuit is basic and easy to understand. It also becomes possible to understand in theory that going as far as three dots again past the three dots you can see, means an unseen, unknown point beyond the horizon. 

Now compare this grid with a person whose perceptions contain ten or a hundred dots to either side. The number of possible patterns and combinations, rhythms, within this scale of grid is immensely and immeasurably complicated to a person who can only see three or four dots. The entirety of the three dot thinker becomes a very basic cognitive symbol for the hundred dot thinker, one of many such symbols most of which are outside of and beyond the three dot thinkers comprehension.

Alternate Vs Conformity

Abstract and Creative Intelligence vs Dogmatic Fundamentalism

Alternate vs Conformity

Who says it is 'alternate'? Mainstream majority or minority group? This descriptive bias is permeated by the dogmatic fundamentalists, not by those with abstract and creative intelligence.

Nobody is more correct than the other. The ones who are wrong are the ones saying someone is wrong. Opinion can be a factor but it is not absolute truth.

"That your opinion can be proven to be based on a strawman fallacy,
shows that you are irrational." Rational Mentality 

A rational, reasonable and well-balanced mind integrates both left and right, imaginative and logical processes. Anyone with prejudice against the other is not rational and reasonable. Anyone with prejudice against the other is not functioning properly and is mentally imbalanced, is cognitively sick.
I pointed this out to two groups of people.

The fundamentalists laughed and called me crazy and a danger to society. Not to community, to society: which is a very different thing. I am not a member of that society so I do not respect their opinion that my opinion is crazy. I experience no symptoms of insanity per se, which means the fundamentalists are using a strawman argument, thus further proving their disfunction of clarity.

The creatives laughed and generally agreed with the statement. I am a member of that community. We use abstract intelligence to communicate beyond and outside of the limitations of unreasonable logical arguments. This includes empathic awareness for example which rejects emotional and mental abuses along with any infrastructure which supports them.

The responses of these two groups says as much about the overall situation as does the original statement itself.

Saturday, 16 September 2017


Finally 'they' are filming Gibson, the news broke like a mind fried on digital drugs under analaesthetic mistreatment of a biopsycop clinical interrogation procedurally generated 64-bit graphic blipfest on an i-ching k'ching torture wheel of life. 'Your time has come' the infoverload splashed to grab your catchy attention whoring borgasm. 

Hi-5 if you did it in one take out the trash with the cat.

And so it calms down to a regular spin wherein the revelation I live in the fucking sprawl. 

Need proof? A pixel tells a hundred words.

© SW Wales Herald 8.9.17 used non-profit for educational purposes within international fair use policy

Top image: local newspaper print and article; the greedy old girls club council are at it again, building shit homes on unsafe terrain for immediate profit now despite so many regulations against it. The bay is Britains most toxic because too much sewage outlets already and most of the development is on the floodplain, raised a few feet by burying bluebag recycling under concrete because its cheaper than actually recycling it. This is Wales for you.

The pixel-tryptic below shows the Sprawl Trilogy umpteenth edition print covers. 

And it is all the same thing. 

No more needs saying.

Sunday, 10 September 2017


I write a lot of notes on a touch-screen tablet. Upload to dropbox, zip into word-processor and make second draft. Novelist in action, productivity pipeline and it sure as hell beats writing on envelopes. The following content is this weeks splurge, extracts from the ongoing themes I process while trying to achieve zen no-mind.

Word Play


Convince. Conviction. Convict.
Slave to a grid of thinking.
Persuaded by manipulation.
left brain centric is not balanced.

Creatives respect the mind functions best when floating free to connect with intuition as a faculty of knowing truth. Spiritual teachings explain intuition to be our direct communion with the divine. Through intuition works god, through intuition we know god. We cannot find it as an external source. That is a power, not a connection with the absolute, with allah (the all being), with galactic harmony.

Truth is not what other people say, that is merely a resonance with truth if it is true speech from intuition as opposed to left brained dogmatic repetition of a grid, of a belief structure, a persuasion or conviction, a slavery to delusion. 

Truth is what actually happened and if what actually happened cannot be fully understood from seeing it from only one angle, we need to see it from multiple angles to know it. The limitations of left brained logic is that small minds can cope only with small grids. To develop a flexible left brain which can overlay multiple grids at once requires the balanced working of the mind where left and right logic and creative are working together. You cannot repress one part of the balanced functioning of the mind and call that 'proper' without losing rationality. 

Incentive. To Entice. Enter into a specific grid way of seeing things. Left brained dogma.
Incent and intent. Innocent. In-no-cent means not-guilt. In-cent means toward guilt. Incentive.
Inattentive lacks attention, focus.
Intentive has focus, attention toward a desired outcome. An agenda. A bias.

Dogma denies that there are associations where you have never previously made associations, denies you making those associations. Yoh reject them because your brain is not hardwired to connect this item with that item. Once you go through the thought process and can see how a links to b links to c that is when you learn a new thing, you gain the pattern and now you can associate it all as a cohesive and acceptable system. It makes sense now. In-sense. Previously it was invisible to you, did not catch, it was in-no-sense. Your education intk a specific thought system makes you more guilty, dirties you. Knowledge of mind takes you away from intuition and connection with divine. You listen to your program-grid instead of flowing free as naturally designed. 

Symbology of fruits of tree of knowledge. 

Pagan: "If you did not teach me it was wrong to be uncivilised, would god still let me into heaven?"
Priest: "Yes of course."
Pagan: "So why in hell did you teach me?"

The system is entirely left brained, a calculus.

Crit Fact


"She believes in opinions as if they are truths.”

The word 'fact' is an abbreviation of factor.

The factors of the case. 
The factors we are basing our approach on. 
The factors of life.

Factors are not truths. 

They are deviations and the causes for deviations away from truth. They are justifications; a word which means not 'plausible excuse' although it is commonly misused to mean that rather than 'to justify' which means to put straight, to amend. 

Here we have a situation where the word invented to mean 'deviate' is regularly assumed to mean 'straighten' which is a terribly alarming factor in our analysis of common misuses of the English language. We can not trust the rationality and indeed sanity of a person who is so manipulative as to be using the word black to mean white. They do this either from ignorance, which proves they are unworthy of respectability; or knowingly, which proves they are unworthy of respectability. 

In an environment where such terminology is so commonly misused the confusion is too dangerous for any wise observer to risk use of these words at all. Any environment which does make use of such words when simpler, cleaner alternatives are available, which they are, does so precisely to perpetuate that confusion. Grey areas provide leverage and coverage for manipulation. These environments are perpetuated by manipulators because were it otherwise, such environments would cease to be exist. They are entirely unecessary for any direct and honest communication.

Next time anybody uses the word 'fact': double-check with them to find out if they know what it means. Nine times out of ten they are using the word as a replacement for the word 'truth' because they have persuaded themself and are seeking to persuade others that a factor (deviate) is a truth. He is true (innocent) except for the factors upon which we build our case against him shows him as untrue (not innocent). Factors realign our perspective thus our perception. 

"If it is not the Truth it is a lie."

A quality police officer will be able to accurately assess the difference between a real factor ('he had blood on his hands') from a fabricated factor ('she said she saw blood on his hands - although her stated opinion has nothing substantial to verify it and it is not evident that he had blood on his hands, it is evident only that she wants us to believe he did'). 

A corrupt police officer will accept opinion as truth even with no evidence and will describe it to be a fact. To express it as follows: "a critical factor is that a witness saw him with blood on his hands" sounds very persuasive especially when stated by somebody in a position of authority. This does not make it a truth. 

When we deconstruct use of language we deconstruct assumed authority. This is not the same as questioning authority. Manipulation is not authority: it is neglect of duty. Doing it knowingly is corruption, it is a criminal offense.



"You are playing a game. Your writing is a mind game.” She said.

In the real world she did not say this directly to the writers face. She explained it to the police who she was attempting to entangle into her game, into her vendetta.

On this occasion the police saw it sensibly for what it was. She made the accusation. She logs into a website of her own choice, which is either cyberstalking because she is obsessive or else she is a fan, albeit a fan with both a grudge and an overwhelmingly huge sense of self importance. The whole world exists to support her control drama. The writers she encounters online exist solely to support her control drama. She is that desperate for attention. The maximum yield for the angry type of attention she requires is to target an online author and attempt to see him into jail. She does not recognize this as a mental health issue.

Yet she exists only in the writers imagination, as a buffer for an idea he is exploring; the writer adds by way of legal disclaimer.

He replies with his truth:

"It has nothing to do with you. If you want me to use you as inspiration for a character in my fiction novels, I will consider it. That you clearly believe everything I write is aimed directly at you personally proves two things. One about you and one about the writing. About the writing, it is of a type which people relate directly to, they clearly find it relevant to their own life situation. This is a very good thing and positive feedback for any writer who aims to succeed at that goal. The technique is because I ‘tell it as it is’, with no bullshit.”

After a very short pause he adds: “Well perhaps a little bit of bullshit which is necessary because am not writing bullet-points, I am writing script. It is a different style where some level of characterization and a lot of proper grammar is necessary. As far as getting the point across, such things are bullshit. As far as being approved by literary circles, they are important, so we are told by those literary circles. I resent having to please them to the detriment of my intended purpose, yet as I explained I am not writing bullet-points.” 

He pauses for breathe, to contemplate the irrelevance of his previous paragraph to the overall nature of the manuscript and yet at the same time that he opportunity given by the flow of the story to include it here makes it worth doing, despite it complicating the nature of the text. The pause was also useful to allow the information to sink into his bored listeners mind. Being of her technologically attention-stunted generation with very little patience and inability to integrate long tracts of information in a single sitting, she had already switched off. He knew this speech would be transmitted into text and while on a roll with expressing himself he continued anyway for the purpose of posterity. Fully answering the points he had raised, the main bulk of the diatribe’s intention.

“Secondly, it says about you that you are a sociopath who cannot tell the difference between where yourself ends and the external world begins. You have identified with this writing but can not or will not accept that it is not written directly about you, nor for you to the exclusion of all of other people. It is written for whoever reads and enjoys it. If that is a one-to-one relationship between text and reader, that is a good thing. If that is a one-to-one relationship between stranger and author, that is a different thing entirely. You opened the book. You opened the gate. It is your choice for which you are responsible. I did not ask you to read my text. You chose to do that. The text is not the author and you very much must learn that to be a true and real thing. The characters are fictional, they are not the personality and beliefs of the writer. They do not represent the personality and beliefs of the author. If you can not separate those things you need to get help from a qualified mental health professional.”

Her glazed and inattentive eyes were awoken mildly by his reference to her mental state. She was still too dulled from being spoken at incessantly to make any sort of quick response and he recognised she was effectively in some sort of trance state, digesting some of what he had been speaking about even while he was bombarding her with more dialogue. He was on a roll and finding it hard to stop.

“Writing is my form of counseling, I do it to get these thoughts out of me so that my mind is empty and free simply to float and perceive sensations other than an onslaught of words which pour through it. Through and not from. These fluctuating rhythms are assigned meaning by the collective. Whatever form of communication that results in toward a readership of hundreds of people. I hesitate to use the word fans but they do come back for more and some of them such as yourself even blow air around. Unfortunately for me the only ones who ever contact me directly tend to be sociopaths who believe I am writing for them personally. It happens every few years, I get a psycho-fan who wants to dominate and control me in some way. Some of them sexually, some of them legally, some of them a mixture of both. Some simply want to control what I write about, to seize the helm of my creativity because they are too damaged to acknowledge their own. The possibility of money does have to do with it, these are usually industry people who want me to re-write something so they can sell it for a cut in the profits.”

Mention of money and profits caused her to look directly at him. She was interested now and glad that she had not interrupted him before he had mentioned this. She was still in slow-motion from the effort of thinking about what he was saying and so it is possible that it was mention of sex and control which had caused her to awaken slightly. At any rate their eyes caught at this moment, his explaining that his manuscripts were sometimes deemed profitably publishable by literary experts.

“All of this experience does affect my writing because I write about events in my life. I write about it in my own way of expressing it. It does not intentionally relate directly to any one specific person. Although so many people have felt it does, this says a lot about the nature of some people and about the type of writing it is. Whatever energy I am attempting to convey or is being conveyed through me. Such readers not only are extremely self-obsessive but also generally obsessive. They target those things and people which resonate to their energy-control-drama and whatever power-games they want to play with other people, people who are nothing to do with them."

It is a long, well thought out response explaining exactly what I feel is occurring here.

She blinks a few times and does not answer. There isn’t really an answer because there was never a question. 

Mixing Greys


Bringing more spiritually pure people down to their dirty level to feel better about themselves, to satisfy their superiority complex, to enlighten themselves through piracy and manipulation.

White paint mixes with white paint, both paints now white. Grey paint mixes with grey paint, both paints now grey. People become grey when they get stained toward black by doing dirty things, holding onto dirty mentalities and emotions. Grey people resonate better with grey people who are not so different from them. They mistake this affinity as 'truth' and reject anyone not the same grey as themselves. Its a subconscious awareness of energy spectrums, 'like goes with like'. We call it resonance. They match they fit they are the same thing. When a grey wants to become more white it finds a white to mix with, to take some of the whites purity, its lightness. The consequence is the white becomes stained with the greys dirtiness. Both end up a pale shade of grey, for the grey it is uplifting and for the white it is degrading. Grey wants whites purity. This is why empaths are attracted to narcopaths. It is a different version of gold-digger and why women '' (partner with those of higher social scale).

Where the court system is concerned, everyone involved is dirty because they rub shoulders with dirty people. Police, judges, solicitors, wrong-doers, all sit in rooms with . I have been careful not to use the word 'criminal' in that sentence. This is because crime is not necessarily wrong-doing. The black woman who sits in the white section of the bus is not a criminal, she is a hero, despite what legislation says, despite the idiom used by the law society within their workplace. Crime and grime. We can call them griminals because they have been stained by the judgement of grey people and their involvement with such places and paradigms. It is all about context and manipulation, in which truth is the first victim. Where nobody resonates with truth, someone who does, stands out and is persecuted because grey people want to repress purity so as to take some of it for themselves. Judges do not resonate with truth, they resonate with the clockwork mechanic of the legal system which as we have seen is itself dirty. They are not ipso facto respectable, as their position is fear-based rather than spiritually respectful. That is called tyranny, not purity. People do not like the truth if it offends their sensibilities at which time we question their motives and egotism, because if you do not resonate with truth then by default you resonate with lies. Calling a shovel a shovel is being truthful even if the person wielding the shovel says that is an offensive statement because of shovelism. No offence is intended here and the original intent is what makes the different.

To manipulate a white so as to appear to society to be more white yourself does not make you more white, it makes you a dirtier tone of grey. Because people can see the whole situation for what it is. They can see through it. A lot of people who live in fear have confused the fear of tyranny of the law society with purity and are afraid to analyse it the what we have done here. Those people are mentally impaired.

In none of this text have I encouraged criminal activities. The reference to a need for law reform based on individuals standing up against social injustice as representatives of minority groups does have historic precedence. If a legal statute is inhumane, or an inhuman application of it occurs due to wilful manipulation, it shows that the system supporting it is against humanity, it is corrupt.

People make a choice whether they are agent for the corrupt system or agent for truth. A choice between the journey toward becoming a white through the natural and humane processes, or becoming stained and resonating with other corrupt people. Most people conform to the pressure of the corruption believing it will give them an easier life. It is how atrocities are perpetuated. Those who did not stand up against it are culpable. Nurenberg Trials as historic precedent.

Monday, 4 September 2017



They [think/believe] 
They [want/need] that
They [are/were] told
They [think/want/need] that

Despite complexity of versatile language, the block components of the statement (above) and its described thought processes are data-chunks conforming to the very basic grid program of cognition. The above data-chains are descriptors matching the following command series:  

WHO - WHAT - WHAT (item)
WHO - WHAT - WHAT (item)

Programmer does this bit: (input)

WHO : target followers (people) =  'They'
WHAT : desire (to function / progress) (item)
WHY : instruction (told) (because)

target followers (people) do this bit: (response output)

WHERE : (fill in the gap) (request/acquire further/specific data)
WHEN : (fill in the gap) (request/acquire further/specific data)
HOW : (fill in the gap) (request/acquire further/specific data)

This is insect level reflexive functioning.
It has no critical thought beyond that required to comprehend 
conveyed instructions and to carry out instructions.

This is how an ant hive functions.
It is also how a social system functions.

A human being who is defined as such by actively being human (adjective noun) questions the instructions and questions the validity of carrying out that activity and of furthering that thought process.

"Is it worth the bother and what is in it for me?"

To reply to those questions with 'because I was told to' is a cyclic/circular argument which fails the individual as an evolving entity capable of autonomous integrity.
Is it possible that we are not here to evolve?
Is it possible we are a slave caste rules by a slave caste
We do not even recognize it because we have lost the ability to think critically?

"To what purpose do I function?"

Why are you asking another person to what purpose they function?

Ask it of yourself.

©2017 Ordo Octopia

style vibe 46

" vibes never go out of fashion." 

-notes & quotes from BTEC National Diploma course in prep for fashion industry

 These two soundscapes together, are the same thing:


 An understated yet oddly affecting sci-fi romance 
which offers a glimpse of a disturbing and all-too-credible future.

Transvision Vamp - Halo Jones

(inspired by Alan Moore and Ian Gibson graphic novel) 

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