Monday, 31 October 2016


I did the MENSA IQ test and I am in the spectrum described as "genius". It is something which I am not showing off about, it is simply statistical data. I told a few people but so far nobody has asked me what I believe myself to be a genius at. Most people think genius means mathematician because they clearly are not themselves great thinkers. My genius is fucking esoteric to most people. This post should give you a clue. It is not a topic which people like to believe exists, until they have no choice but to accept that of course it does. Most of the time it alienates me from society and is a problem rather than a benefit.

Age 16 I slaved and saved for a Korg G3 multi-effects processor. It is soft gothic and beautiful and people told me it was crap but when I played with it I thought it was better than the alternatives and recognized that they were wrong. Kids being jealous. I got seriously into it. One night I was in headphones - these devices sound different through headphones - clearer sound than a guitar amp. I discovered if I leaned the guitar up and hit the strings with a pencil, with the settings set just right, it made 4:4 techno music but the texture, the tones, so fruity it was like eating chocolate raisins with cinnamon, fire coloured shapes and a deep indigo blue tone, I started seeing sound as colour, well it made me aware that is how I see sound. I learned about synaesthesia after that, and Kandinsky. 

As I was enjoying this sound and wondering how to record it to show others, I went deeper into the trance and I had a telepathic experience. I saw a face and felt his heart come through into the same heart space as myself. We saw that we needed more complicated machines for changing the sound in different ways and together we visualized that machine. I did not know what it meant only that the music had somehow connected us. It was about ten years later before I connected with the very same guy and we started making trance techno music together on Korg electribes. That was about ten years ago. 

This is why Korg are the best machines - because they have a telepathic element which reaches through time to set in motion events and meetings through which creative development occurs. When we shamen explain this to the money people the money people call us insane. When we tell the money people that we are making goods to the value of they recognize that we are not insane. That creativity which can be commercialized occurs on more levels of reality than they can see, but that we know how to see into it - they get creeped out and reject us from their society. So our music is tribal and is not released commercially. Some people listen to it and say it is crap. But then we know - they are the sixteen year old jealous kids. 

So we play our music in the right places and to the right people and what happens as a result is those colours, that telepathic code, enters those people, through the music, whatever we have tapped into through our music which is something so much more powerful than we are. The best way to describe how to access this thing is that it happens when our hearts are happy. The question is - what or who prevents all our hearts from being happy and how can we remedy it? Everything which has happened in the space between this, all the different stories and experiences, only a few times have I seen those colours in other places. Most of the world is dry and dead and has no living music connected to evolution powerful enough to affect developing societies. Plugged into the matrix, the organic wild weave of timespace, our soul level awakenings. 

Now is the time to heal the world which means now is the time to start making this sort of music again and playing it in the right places. A lot of people are not connected to Life and they get frightened by it, attempt to repress it or control it or at least commercialize it for their own gain. Somehow every time third parties attempt to capitalize on it, the whole thing falls apart and the band splits, or the music goes crap and loses its connection to that deep pulse. We are still studying these phenomena. 

A lot of people simply are not yet ready to be awakened to the levels this shit works on. And for the record no drugs were involved with these revelations. When you mix drugs into the equation it becomes something else. We are not creating zombies hooked on rhythms, it is the opposite, we are releasing people from that - which is why the controllers have problems with this sort of music. Different brand instruments do not seem to open through in the same way as Korg. 

I am not on the Korg payroll.

Sunday, 30 October 2016

I, Daniel Blake

"The film has taken the very worst of anything that can ever happen to anyone, lump it all together and then say - this is life absolutely as it is lived by people." 

Iain Duncan Smith MP reviews 'I, Daniel Blake' the new Ken Loach film.

This movie barely scratches the surface. On top of everything it contains, add "misdiagnosed after allegation of being a drug dealer" which involves degradation from mental health and GPs who refuse to listen to the actual problem, and recurrent illegal searches of attic for a non-existent grow-lab which frightens my kids because someone has been in the house and moved things about, again, and social prejudice against people who have been diagnosed as mental simply to shut them up for exposing criminal activity and abuse networks in society. And ensuring Hate Crimes discriminating against people who cannot gain work due to misdiagnosis and the risk that kids are under with Social Services profiting from forced adoptions / child trafficking which is rife in Britain as it is a growth industry. The Ken Loach movie is barely the start of what real life is like here, its a gloss overview.

Tuesday, 25 October 2016

Mentation One


There are layers of reality. There are layers of Mind. Mind is not what people are told it is. Shamen develop a recognition of what we are. Pharmacology funded Academic psychiatry and psychology research has missed the point. Mind is not unique to the individual. Ego is. Ego is a component of Mind. It is not the full extent of it. We need ego for individuality otherwise we would be hive units, bee’s following control-function orders from the super-ego and obsessively driven by addiction and subconscious reflex response of the id. When we detach from Ego, Mind is psychic. Either we are aware of this or not. When we are aware of it, we Observe what is happening. The word for this detached observer is Self. Self is not the Mind. Mind is Arena.

I developed a pictorial description for this. Your Attention focus is a cone. It can be sent outward into the external world and it can be sent inward into the arena of Mind. These are two distinct teachings. Here we concentrate on sending it inward into Mind.

The tip of the cone opens into a sphere. All individuals Minds open into this sphere. They do so either willingly or unwillingly, knowingly or unknowingly, consciously or subconsciously. Programs come down from the Sphere into the individual. Programs extend outward from the individual into the Sphere. The more individuals who connect into the sphere, the bigger it gets. Theoretically it is infinite. Within the sphere is an ocean. There are tides. Some describe it as a sky. There are winds.  The currents are thoughts.

It is imperative to understand that thoughts are not the Self. You are not the thoughts occupying your mind space. Neither is that mind space the same thing as the ego.

We have to be very careful so as not to get confused as to the precise and specific meanings of each of these words and their associated concepts. Too many people use the words interchangeably and it has resulted in a great amount of confusion. I have attempted to explain what each word properly means and in a worthy context.

The intention of any evolving individual is to become the Self. The detached observer capable of using ones assets for their proper purposes. Ensure you study this and know exactly what word relates to what concept. It is imperative otherwise you will become confused. Mental Impairment is a tool of the Enemy of confusion and those who wield it so as to exploit you.

Your mind is full of psychic energy and this is a power. Many others will enslave you to their systems of thinking. Imagine the queen bee sending her control commands to the hive so as to exploit them to her game. Within the sphere of mind are many individuals and hive-minds who are strategically performing many often contradictory agenda’s. Your individuality is a problem to them. They will subjugate you and they are so much more clever than you. This is their arena and you are a newcomer to it. They do not all exist in the same time and dimension as you. The arena of mind is an overlap of many different spaces combining as one. We silently observe.

Each individual mind has a signature frequency, a texture which is traceable. This is not a place for fame and loudness. Those things will have you destroyed and enslaved into the grids of mind controllers. They will use your psychic energy against you, against your plans, desires, aspirations, hopes dreams friends family species, life in general. They will inhibit your freedom. Some are ancient and vastly powerful to the extent we describe them as daemons and dragons. These naming words are well chosen. We are irrelevant to them until they turn their gaze in our direction. And then we are toast. It can take decades to recover, lifetimes of reincarnation, to heal after coming to the attention of those. We avoid them. Silence, utter stillness, is your best hope for survival. For this we study meditation exercises. Often we dedicate a whole lifetime to this one single pursuit - quieting the mind. Stilling the mind. It is a survival tool. This cannot be emphasised enough.

TBC           ©2016 snakeappletree

Monday, 24 October 2016

Psyker's Tale

Necromunda Fan Fiction

Psyker’s Tale

When I was a kid i got into Necromunda. Back then it was called Confrontation. The world it occurs in is amazing. A Hive world. Architectural beauty scratch-built from trash. It is a world designed for bad feng shui. The people, the culture. It is constant warfare, exploitation, productivity, battle, machines, industry, pollution, toxins, mutants, some chemicals promote psychic development.

One of the psychic developments of this world is a rare girl child, one of the inhabitants. As she reached puberty in the lower city her family, a clan whose males either joined the gangs or became mechs or both, she reached out through the pain and contacted me.
I was going through the same emotional turmoil as she was, looking at her desperate future with no bright prospects, the inevitable futility of her life and the world she was born onto, poverty at best, degeneration at worst, even being killed in a street gang fight would be a blessed relief. I had been beaten up by my dad again after my brother did something and lied about it and told my dad it was my fault. Punishment first do not ask questions. Questions led to more beatings.

The same life for me as for the clan girl. She told me of a guy she had met who she cared for and hoped would protect her and she took my spirit and sent it into him. Together we developed his strength to protect her, as mine and his personalities merged she asked me for others to empower him.

My neighbours older brother used to hurt her. He was strong, wanted to be a soldier, and a lot of the tabletop battle games I got into as a child were the same vibration as he was attracting to himself. He joined the army and was bullied, tortured and finally pushed out of a moving jeep and he died.

He died after I had agreed with the Necromundan girl to send a whole life from my world into hers, to empower her and her boyfriend because that is how much she needed life force energy. We had shared our souls and were connected through desperation and love. My neighbour was the sacrifice. When events and contracts made during dreaming based on imaginary worlds spill over and manifest as realities in the physical world, it is obvious that imagination is a real thing and that the people living on those imaginary worlds are real people. Without doubt I experienced this as a lived reality.
Thousands of kids over many generations have played Necromunda and empowered it. It is a real place, a real dimension in an alternate plane to ours and the psychic people there are able occasionally to reach out and contact us. She was lucky - she manipulated her boyfriend to clear a space so that she could find employ in the upper hab layers. She had that level of intelligence born of struggle. She sent her thought-streams as grids up to the leaders and they, less psychic than her, believed those grids to be their minds, the obvious thing to do. She shaped the culture. It got to the stage where she was trading with off-worlders for the goods exploited from her planet, she was important and protected by coup and corruption necessary to maintain respect in a death-world society. 
Psychic projections cause ripples. Others are affected by them. I can name several people of my own experience who were on the same ripples as the connection made between myself and the girl. It has been thirty years since it occurred and now I am remembering it again for the first time since, re-living the experience and the patterns because now I am reading about Necromunda again and being inspired by its bad feng shui to construct cyber-environments for videogames. I am going into versions of that world and seeing with my whole being, minds eye, feelings, my soul is sharing with others there. A lot of them are less psychic than myself, much less psychic than the woman who I am seeking. She went hard. Cut-throat clever, a product of her environment, ruthless. 
Necromunda is described as a world with no humanity despite and because of overpopulation: limited resources. Only the fittest and cleverest survive. A belief in Luck denotes a belief in Hope. It is a hopeless world of despair. However they do have psychic development drugs there. Only their elite are supposed to have them although watered down dirty versions find their way to where they are needed. People are supernatural about drugs on most worlds.
The people of Necromunda are leeching energy from their planet. The psychic people of Necromunda are leeching psychic energy from societies of planet earth because they have a need to: to survive. This is only hinted at in the canon material but logical as they have so little of it for themselves. That its how humans are evolving in the Spires of Hive worlds. Most of them do not have any idea this is happening. Most of them are simply grunts, not psychic at all, barely more than meat-machines with rage and greed. The humans of the world I am on are not much better. 
Imagination is not make-belief. It is a window, a portal through to other worlds and we can communicate with others there. Some are brighter at it than others, have clearer vision and communication. Of all the worlds existing in the great infinity, why the hell did I have to connect with and be inspired by a brat bitch on Necromunda death world? Nevertheless it has been integral into forming my own character. I never mentioned this to anyone before. 
I love Necromunda. She came to love it too after she accepted it. Accepting that which we hate and coming to love it. Mastering it. Rising to power instead of being trodden down as the irrelevant underdog. The pain becomes our teacher, our friend, our constant ally. Now I bring visions of that world into our world by making video game sets for people to immerse themselves into it. Pictures are portals.

A lot of my urban art for VR is inspired by environmental models made by the game’s fans, capturing the mood of the place. Because I want to show others what we collectively as a hive mind are seeing, and to feel he love and pain, to accept. That this place is real, it describes how we are, whichever world we are from.

Necromunda is copyright Games Workshop Ltd

The Bit Taken From The Horses Mouth

The Bit Taken From The Horses Mouth

I recognised that by detaching from my mind set I can identify alternate mind sets with which to deal with any given situation. Stress pins you to one mind set, that of worrying and it is difficult to overcome. Reptilian cortex flight response. When I began explaining this to people, they did not hear what I was saying and they heard about ‘detaching from mind’ which they describe as schizotypal. 

The problem is that western academic pharma-funded psychology does not recognise this about that we have different mind sets which is a different thing from thinking that your mind is somebody else and being controlled by somebody else. I identified also that some mind sets are indeed following the flow of other peoples manifestation and that there indeed are manifestations governed by collective flow. There are positive mind sets, there are negative mind sets, there are slavery mind sets, there are empowerment mind sets. I decided to stay in creative-instinctive mind set all the time I possible could so as to be able to master my art and my flow of chi energy however I face blockages when others attempt to manifest me to within their paradigm. 

For example if a collaboration of people conspire that I am sick, and I enter their realm, I am more likely to be sick because they are projecting that onto me.

The one I have trouble with is making money from my art, chasing clients, I need help with that because it is very very different from creative-instinctive. 

Because I am different, outside-of-their-box, people project onto me a suspicion that I am crazy and therefore I am constantly on the defensive around those people. Deciding to avoid them is a better way of managing my life than arguing with them and persuading them that I am not crazy, it is simply that they are being assholes to me because they do not understand me until they change their mind set - look at it in terms of the right tool for the job.

I manage my mind until I am so exhausted that I need to rest due to mental impairment from fatigue (and dealing with those types of people is exhausting) - usually first thing in the morning on waking or late at night after a long day. Fatigue degrades our ability to cope well and being an insomniac is a biological response to avoiding the assholes who are generating electro-magnetic fields which affect my mind set and ability to adapt due to fatigue. These people are described as energy vampires. It is startling that so many of them are choose to work for the state system, attracted to the rigidity and fundamental approach that a person can have only one mind set and that a person is broken and wrong if they do not conform to that. 

We speak of it in terms of right brain (creative) and left brain (logic) thinking. The people who deny that yin, yielding-flowing or creative thinking is 50% of what we are as an organism are themselves broken and irrational as much as people who deny that yang logical assertiveness is broken. To maintain rational credibility we must identify that both are necessary. My lifetime of experiences with state workers indicates that they are left-brained and do not accept right-brained thinking as normal, they regard it as abnormal even when it is not problematic for the person in question. This is why they are themselves not rational people. They collectively reinforce their irrational belief structure and describe anything outside of it as abnormal. It is a major problem for people in general that state workers are like that. 

Meditation teaches us about alpha, beta, delta, theta, etc: states of consciousness. This is not factored for by state workers. I realise that I am better educated, better researched and more fully functional than the officials who write reports describing me as abnormal and suspect. This is of great concern. I know from association with people in society and reading widely on a broad range of topics that I am not alone in recognising this about state workers, indeed the majority of humans recognise that this is the case and the mainstream regards them as the abnormal ones, as energy vampires. However they write the official reports which judges in courts of law and order either accept as fact or deny as hear-say, depending upon the context and whatever the judge's mind set happens to be. These same left-brained officials use a different language to most people - what they call ‘alternate subculture’ is actually the way most functional rational people believe the world to be. 

We have a situation where a minority are dictating to the majority that the majority are wrong and deluded and that anybody who stands out from and does not conform to an artificial, non-existent state of being is ‘alternate’. This is a problem for society. Those who adapt to fit into society are not the problem unless they are adapting to a maladjusted and dysfunctional society. Those who stand out by living as well balanced, healthy people are described as social pioneers and innovators and also as ‘alternative subculture’. 

To expand on this I have recognised that the word and concept for 'set' which also means 'warren' developed from the Egyptian deity Sukhet, who later was re-named Set. The horned viper deity is the serpent which speaks with two tongues. Sukhet is a shape-shifter. It represents the mind, a duality occurring that it at once is flowing and unfixed of form while simultaneously it is a precise thing albeit one very difficult to grasp. Set is depicted as any number of animal forms - typically a Tapir (often called a 'pig') because they are stubborn and willful, yet are difficult to catch. As the pantheon developed Set is more recently associated with perversion and adversity.

It is not mistake that the acronym for the Search for Extra Terrestrial Intelligence is called SETI.

Horus and Set create between them: Balance

Monday, 10 October 2016

Of One Mind


To Dr Razor,

Following our meeting of 20.09.2016 during which we were unable to discuss matters which we do still need to discuss, I am requesting another meeting, this time without Chopsy the Social Worker present so that I can express to you what it was I was hoping to during the first meeting.

Since that time I have finally acquired a copy of my case file from the mental health team in Newport and it is imperative that somebody from a more professional mental health team take a look at it with me so that my responses to some of the situations mentioned in the file can be taken into account.

This is the first time I have been able to ascertain in black and white what was occurring at the time circa 2006 - 2008. Basically, my parents lied to Dr Loony and to the mental health team in Newport, in order to - in my mothers own words - “I am going to have you sectioned.”

I believe it probable that both my parents atrocious behavior at the time was due to their fear that I might present evidence at their divorce tribunal. Neither of them seem able to recognize that I had no intention of being involved in either of their affairs, nor that because of their historic behavior toward me, my attempts to minimize their impact on my own life were frustrated by the lengths they both went to to control my life.

Unfortunately the mental health team in Newport did not recognize any of this either and preferred to describe my not wanting anything to do with my parents as ‘paranoia’ rather than the actuality, they really were both out to get me. The fabrications contained in the case file are evidence of that. I believe that my father being an old family friend of Dr Gone is probably why she was unable to recognize this.

I have written a full response to every allegation in the file, to justify my position, which has not changed throughout the past decade. The impact of my parents fabricating information in attempt to have me sectioned is significant damage. It falls well within criminal behavior as described by “prejudice” which is a form of “hate crime”. The mental health team in Newport are incriminated in this also. I have looked into taking the matter to court however I always have and continue to believe in not acting destructively toward other people.

I cannot get life insurance which I want to do because I have a son who will need financial help after his father (myself) passes on.
I cannot get a job because nobody will employ somebody with a history of alleged schizophrenia despite ‘equality in the workplace’.
I cannot get a quality life partner because of the social stigma.
I have been victim of hate crimes specifically because of the misdiagnosis.
I have been persecuted by the police for the same.
It has affected the outcome of family court proceedings which I have been involved with.
And so on.

These experiences have caused me a great amount of stress. Along with childhood ritual abuse and having had to deal with the manipulations of state workers all along the way due to inability to find employment, I sincerely believe that the symptoms I do experience are complex PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and not schizophrenia. There is an overlap of symptoms however when comparing the two lists (from the NHS websites) I do not experience, and never have experienced, the schizophrenia symptoms. All of those are in my case files because the mental health team in Newport spoke with my parents and ignored what I have been saying all along.

This includes allegations of attempted suicide (my father made this allegation, I did not attempt suicide), psychotic breakdown (my mother made this allegation after I disobeyed her when she told me not to visit my girlfriend who lived outside of my parents sphere of influence) and so on.

I am writing this suis juris, wholly believing myself to be of sane and rational state of mind.

I mentioned manipulations by state workers - this includes Dr Dickhead who told me that he would not refer me to your mental health team for re-assessment unless I said that I do hear voices. I perceive this as blackmail and a sick joke, to give leverage against what I am saying. I need to be re-assessed by somebody intelligent enough to identify that I was forced under duress to tell Dr Dickhead that I do hear voices so that I could explain this situation, the expression ‘risk taking one step back in order to get two steps forward’ sums it up well. I do not like lying and I especially do not like being forced into a situation where I have to lie. I believe this to be malpractice on the part of Dr Dickhead.

I am making a copy of all off my records available for public consumption. Obviously I will change names to protect everybody. I am a published writer with a readership of over 300 different people per week for the past 18 months if my website statistical data is correct. I have no reason to doubt it. It is hardly fame but it is influence. I will include a copy of this letter also.

Dr Gone repeatedly used the phrase “alternate subculture” in her report. I do not know what she meant alternate to. I would very much appreciate it if you take time to look at this following information regarding prejudice against alternate subculture which since 2009 has been recognized by the British Police and Government who have changed the law to include “alternate subculture” as a target of Hate Crimes equal to gender, sexual orientation, skin colour, disability and religion.
Sophie Lancaster Foundation / Hate crimes

It is a very popular topic and powerful enough in the minds of the public to have forced law reforms. I am certain that you can see how my case relates to this. This is why I am releasing the information for public consumption. I believe it to be my civic duty to do so for the betterment of humanity.

Please do not mistake my attitude as being ‘angry’. It is closer to a reprieve from ‘flight response’. My overwhelming feeling is relief that I finally have my case file to be able to respond to the situation forced on me ten years ago that has affected my life so much. I know from being me and living my life and experiencing what I have and do, that I do have cPTSD despite whatever the bogus reports and allegations contained in the mental health team in Newport case file say. My hope is that somebody in relevant authority can formalize this officially with a correct diagnosis. Having that in paperwork will change my life, will exponentially improve it.

I will forward you my response to the mental health team in Newport file in advance of our next meeting which I hope you will arrange a date for once having understood where I am coming from. It is a lot of writing so I have highlighted the most important parts in bold text. I have waited ten difficult years to be able to reply to the allegations against me. I will also be sending copies to the relevant people involved.

I hope to be hearing from you soon.
Yours in good faith,


no not that me I meant the other me