Tuesday, 20 November 2012

There are only 4 types of people/relationships;

Positive, Negative/Abusive, Indifferent, Mixed. 

The way that we have it because we are stripping society of negativity, and to protect ourselves, is to allow only Positive and Indifferent influences; to (actively if necessary) boycott and avoid Negative/Abusive and minimise Mixed until Mixed becomes better defined as one of the other categories. Mixed is problematic because confusion is Negative. Mixed allows for give&take control games that are Negative.

Where this analogy leaves family relationships is it negates disfunctional families by providing clear outline for self empowerment methods of lifestyle.

Positivity flows outward from the Heart.

Tuesday, 13 November 2012

yet more police harassment...

"changed direction in street" because I was returning to the house to collect my phone which I had forgot. I hadn't even seen the cop car, I wasn't watching the traffic as I didn't need to cross the road. 

I am filing this under Ormus Experiment (which I have been doing) 
on the basis of the video I watched this morning; 

  and that the effects of Ormus are to manifest
symptoms of mental delusions 
(anything other than no-mind is sansara, the confused/conditioned state).

The local cops are nice here, they actually provide a receipt when they stop&search you (always ask for one). When I was living in the city I was stop&searched regularly and no police carry the receipts there, you have to go to the station only to be told the relevant officer is unavailable.
NB: top right corner of docket;
no reference number makes it much more difficult for me to chase this up if ever I should need to.

Friday, 9 November 2012


"Living for the seventh generation"

Establishing a framework.

'What is the most important thing?'

To many, the answer is simple:

The children.

The future of the human race, the future of this world, depends entirely on how well we raise the next generation. That is our most important task. Everything else we deal with in life is secondary to that prime concern.

Those who do not follow this belief in practise as lifestyle are not working for the future of humanity and therefore are not working for humanity. Those working to serve other existing adult humans are also working for humanity.

The mark of how selfish a person or society is relates to ability to be giving, selfless, caring; to create a thriving community. Emotional wellbeing. The happiness of children. This relies on the happiness of adults. The ability to be giving, to radiate, a star; as opposed to be taking, a black hole. An easy metaphor. Loving is giving, it is not taking. A lifestyle based on provision of a loving environment for children to grow up in that they become loving adults in a loving community.

Olmec Stone Heads.

Here we see Worship of children as cultural mainstream.

Often misinterpreted as 'ball players' however no other Mesoamerican art depicting ball players shows them wearing rubber helmets nor with asiatic facial features.

Olmec stone heads depict toddlers with chubby baby faces wearing rubber helmets made from gum trees. Anyone involved in raising toddlers learning to walk and balance, is aware of how they inevitably fall and bump their heads.

Olmecs used rubber helmets to protect their childrens heads during this phase of development. They carved it into stone because this act speaks through time as a statement of their cultural focus. That their prime concern was the next generation; stonecarvings to remind this to the next generation, and the next, and the next - ad infinitum.
At this time of global change and cultural transition, it is time to remember this lesson from the past and to remember to live for the next generation. It is their world that we are borrowing. Do we nurture or destroy it? Do we provide for their needs?

It takes twenty years for a tree grown from seed to bear fruit. Human symbiosis with nature is designed this way.

The problem with 20th century industrial consumerist culture that we have inherited from disfunctional previous generation is that it is self-serving for immediate gratification.

"I have to pay my bills (to a fat corporation) therefore I do not have time for that." This statement summarizes the sickness.

Centering the Heart

Your Heart is the center. It glows like a light (or is a black hole). Around it is a perimeter measuring from genitals to head, both of which are the same distance from your heart.

When this perimeter is 'out of whack' (disfunctioning), t
he brain and the genitals are out of whack. Brain and genitals are both electrical, are both part of the same electronic circuit called the nervous system. One can be programmed from the other.

It is the brain releases hormone chemicals such as endorphine, melotonine, seretonine, oestrogen, dmt, that affect the whole metabolism. The genitals are designed as a manual override for this. The incentive to balance ourselves and each other is pleasure.

When you look at how out of whack most peoples minds are, and how devestated human communities have been because of this; when you know the history of repression of pleasure after catholic control memes into what is now post-victorian culture but still suffers many victorian values; we can identify a simple remedy for the worlds ill to be an increase in the amount of adult pleasure.

Understanding this necessarily leads to liberation from self slavery and slavery of others. It is the repression that is the problem and it has affected the levels of mental awareness we deal with when manifesting normal social conventions and lifestyles. It is pretty obvious what we have to do to kickstart the heart at the center of our being back into a functional mode of being.
Jared Diamond, the Rise and Fall of the Third Chimpanzee, reveals after a study into primates that humans have the largest genitals relative to our body size than any other primate.

He concludes that we are designed for pleasure and that this has a
direct consequence on human evolutionary development. That we are the only species that uses tools and adapts our environment to suit our desires, is a result of the mental stimulation by massage of nervous system.

He also discusses that we are the only species that builds weapons and wars. Evidently this aspect of human nature relates to the disfunction of a loving heart and balanced mental system. War is aberration.

The study of primate groups revealed that simians are naturally bisexual and promiscuous.  

Tuesday, 6 November 2012

stop believing and see

I was trained in deconditioning, for a purpose of cleaning up society of its madness, wherever I am able. A side effect of this is that I question, is there such thing as ego? is there such thing as needing to heal? Once you strip perceptions and awareness right back to the primal; all the positive memes are as questionable as the negative memes. We seem to take so seriously the belief in 'needing to heal = improving ourselves'. This current psychological context perpetuated at this time, is comparable to the similar concepts released through, for examples, both christian morality system and that of buddhist philosophy. There is an inherent dogma in all of these cultural foci that 'we are wrong and therefore must strive for betterment'. The problem being regarded as negative aspects of human character. 

Once you stop believing in karma, there is no such physics. Once you stop believing in god, there is no such overseer. The cause and effect of the world at that point is not the same links as are made within the theisms. Science if you credit that at all has shown that synaptic links in the brain, develop following lines of thought. We are hardwired in the pattern of our beliefs. Science also has shown us that reality mirrors to us whatever is within; our preconceptions, subconscious, program experiences. In this is an overlap where our beliefs affect other people around us who are caught up in the manifestation.

Question all all of this!

Return to primal state (non-judgement, observation, non-conceptual dogma) and then we recognise that while there is an underlaying law to the jungle of life, community, society; that it is NONE OF THE ABOVE!!!! Progressive developments of social structure are engineered. Spiritualisation is engineered as a social control system. These are delusion we get caught up in that remove us from pure primal perceptions. 

Who has the power? 
 Who has the power to do this?

The conclusion I have come to watching by social movements for improvements and researching history to see that it is a long continuity of social movements for improvemens, leading us always back to the same point that has not been resolved in mainstream consciousness: most of our time is spent in a state of delusion carried away on the mental delusions, chasing this or that or them, trying to find a balance, an equilibrium that never comes. It only comes when you chop your head off and stop using the mind altogether.

And that is NEVER going to end unless we change the nature of humans by - altering the dna or reprogramming everyone with the shockwave or a forced and pre-planned global 48 hour chill-out meditation session curfew. And humans would be a different thing then to what humans are; it makes as big a difference to humanity species as did the mastery of harnessing fire. We are still at that stage, within that window. 

Human evolution goes: pre-fire phase, have fire phase, mindless phase. We haven't achieved mindless phase yet. Some say that as soon as we do, we will be invaded. Others say that our reliance on Mind IS the invasion.

There are 3 stages to Human history.

1: before we were invaded by extra-dimensional entities. Before we harnessed fire. Before we were capable of abstract thought.

2: after (the above).
"They gave us their mind" -Don Matos to Don Juan.
Ever since that time we have been confused, removed from primal animal nature, dealing with complexity of not being balanced life-forms. It has led to progress and development which is necessary. But we are no better off in terms of happiness and sorrow than we were before. The distraction to avoid achieving (step 3) is what generates (step 2). This is where we are now in history.

3: After we disassociate from Mind successfully to return to primal state having integrated the wisdom of (above). This perception is known as Zen No-Mind, is known as Pure Gaze. It is the removal of a filter system of concepts and contexts, associations an logo's, from preconceptions. In short, it is 'off with the head' so that we function from heart, the center of being, rather than the polarities of genitals (1) or Mind (2).

Humanity has not yet achieved stage 3.

Thursday, 1 November 2012

Ghost Forest

http://www.wakingtimes.com/2012/05/02/how-trees-communicate-video/Today I walked through the "ghost forest" an exhibition of naturally fallen tree stumps and roots imported from all over the world to wales. It was eery. Most of them from countries where unlike britain they only have a few inches of topsoil, so the base of the tree grows outward and the roots are very shallow therefore all twisty. British trees we have... lets put it this way... a documentary with baldric from blackadder presenting it (tony robinson, they hiss in my ear, his name is tony robinson) he was involved with (time team, the program is called time team, they tell me) (its great having spirit allies when they are friendly I dont need to use my memory and can use that databank for other more interesting purposes)... they dug up an airplane that crashed in sw england on the moors during ww2. It was under 16 feet of topsoil. This is the actual proof that the rate at which soil builds up in some parts of the uk is 16 feet in 69 years. Thats 4 feet a year. Strange but true. Beneath the rainforests they dont even have 4 feet deep of soil, and as soon as the trees are chopped, the wind sweeps all the soil away to the bedrock, like I suspect is what happened with the Nazca rainforest of Peru. For this reason, trees in britain have deep roots that go far down into the soil, some of them as deep as the tree is tall so I am told. Many imported pine trees do not have this; the old traditional broadleafs do. And their roots move, the trees move. I've seen this.

At the biodome today I stared into the pool from a ledge, I tuned into it. There is a sadness there, because there is so much missing that the plants need. The sounds, of insects and animals. The thought tides of species; lizards, mammals, birds. These elements are essential to an ecology. The plants know this and they cannot grow to their full power, their full happiness, without being a part of ... that. Creatures need to swing in the wings of trees for the tree to know comfort, a full life.
These plants remember it through their dna and they remember the loss. Plants do not forget between the generations and incarnations, like humans do. Plants remember the mother from the seed. These plants in the biodome feel a great sense of loss and also a great sense of acceptance of that. It is mournful. They know that on the other side of the biodome there is torrential rain and icy cold weather. These plants are from desert climates. They would be dead without human care. It is wonderful to smell them, taste them, feel them, share energy field with them. Now the forest is more fully developed and the plants are maturing.
Now I am familiar on my third annual visit to the place, so that it is not the individual trees, the more awake ones that I telempath with but the forest as a whole. It needs the sound of chirruping hoppers and colourful birds, small furry animals moving fast and burrowing beneath its roots. Its medicinal properties are amazing if it were ever to be used for that (a guide explained to me they don't sell seeds or cuttings, most people don't have the right environments for such to survive). Today I learned and felt that the plants themselves need healing. This speaks for nature. The plants need healing. We exploit them as products and farm them. 99% humans are too blind to realise they are sentient. Dr Emoto has proved it using hard science and still, most people don't and can't access that psychometric level of sensitivity in themselves to believe that it is possible to speak with plants using emotion and energy fields and dna as the language, and that it can contain more information than mere speech alone.

link thanks to Tesha Miller

All Hallows Eve 2012

the halloween full moon has been a learning curve. Mostly regarding spirit interaction with karma. I love tribal drums, today there was a point where the balance was just so that the gate opened and all the incidental players mostly kids just caught the rhythm, channelling it through, at exactly that moment the drum boss eyes caught mine and shone, I had to pull my gaze away it was so intense! But we knew it then, he's a rhythm teacher and through rhythm is summoning, and ancestors speak. The whole day has been like that one way or another.

its hard work being an open channel especially when they are doing a teaching. feels like my head gripped in a vice forcing me to be a particular place and time. beatmatching me to a specific grid. the way they work is twofold and often contradictory: shut off emotions using rationality to show me from a specific pov so i take the lesson, or exagurating the emotions whatever it is, usually an overwhelming feeling to 'go! now!'; to 'encourage' me to be at a certain place and time. and very seldom am i there for the reason i thought i would be there. i become an observer, then assimilate the data from the experience, then understand it. for the spirits to grip me this way it removes a lot of normal day to day functions of the mind. it is like they shut off some synapses and open others. so i am inable to communicate or remember but i can observe and balance between the two planes, to follow why the are showing me this stuff.

oh yeah and i smoked pure tobaco last night which has definately had an effect because its a spirit substance. im getting better at it with more and more experience and its all making more sense now than it used to. to get to this stage, i have been through everything. never did h, never been to jail, never blown a guy, never been bankrupt, not in this life time at least; man i've been through just about pretty much every other thing else though. the problem is when two sets of spirits are arguing over which one uses me as a vessel at that time and im torn between two directions, i think they do this to force me to sit still do nothing which is usually the result.

what i have learned is that with no ego, we are totally serving the games of spirits. there is no free will without dealing in karma cycles. theyre showing me all this stuff for a reason. but there is soul, the observer, the self. it is not thought. thought is consequence of having a brain which is like a glove full of confusion for spirits to activate their results. as individuals even when we are lucid aware we cant see the whole of it. we are never alone. we should take solace in this. i crave that loneliness and laugh-out-loud im really lonely with only spirits and a baby for company for the ten years since i took the spiritualists coin and the ten years on top of that since i made a pact to put awareness first.

there are 3 parts to this path: Truth, Purity and finally from it comes an ability to Love, unconditionally. divert from truth and your eyes are closed from truth. and i tell you this now: never once at all ever have i spoken with any spirit of any type who can tell me there is without doubt such a thing as god. most of them scorn it and a few say its a belief that sets a path but its unecessary. faced between god and Truth i chose Truth. and thats how it is.

it means i have to do the Right thing instead of acting on desire. my body craves pleasure and my ego needs recognition and company but f that shit, it gets in the way. the only reason i have a kid is because the spirits told me 5 years ago that i am to live as if there is no transmigration because the world needs my legacy, they were talking about dna and maybe also some teachings. i'd have more kids tonight if i could with the right woman. im lucky to have this one half the time after the court gave us 50/50 residency. i mentioned i've been through everything: the powerful effective techniques that work are those taught by mystery schools and are not public knowledge. if i start talking about magickal ritual they'll put me back on mental health counselling again for 'hearing voices' etc.

the only way for us to end the persecution of spiritualism is to come out in the open about it. what better time than full moon halloween 2012 end of the mayan calendar? also HAVE AN AMAZING 5 DAYS OUT OF TIME! wecome to Year ZERO

Tuesday, 30 October 2012

Necronomicon from Mind Secrets


from Mind Secrets

ISBN 0-75253-592-7 



posted into Facebook 30.10.2012  by Britain Belongs To The People

NOT originally written by snakeappletree!

The only way to overcome the power of money is regain our courage and solidarity. Here's how to do that.

Many Americans know that the United States is not a democracy but a "corporatocracy," in which we are ruled by a partnership of giant corporations, the extremely wealthy elite and corporate-collaborator government officials. However, the truth of such tyranny is not enough to set most of us free to take action. Too many of us have become pacified by corporatocracy-created institutions and culture.

Some activists insist that this political passivity problem is caused by Americans' ignorance due to corporate media propaganda, and others claim that political passivity is caused by the inability to organize due to a lack of money. However, polls show that on the important issues of our day - from senseless wars, to Wall Street bailouts, to corporate tax-dodging, to health insurance rip-offs - the majority of Americans are not ignorant to the reality that they are being screwed. And American history is replete with organizational examples - from the Underground Railroad, to the Great Populist Revolt, to the Flint sit-down strike, to large wildcat strikes a generation ago - of successful rebels who had little money but lots of guts and solidarity.

The elite spend their lives stockpiling money and have the financial clout to bribe, divide and conquer the rest of us. The only way to overcome the power of money is with the power of courage and solidarity. When we regain our guts and solidarity, we can then more wisely select from - and implement - time-honored strategies and tactics that oppressed peoples have long used to defeat the elite. So, how do we regain our guts and solidarity?

1. Create the Cultural and Psychological "Building Blocks" for Democratic Movements

Historian Lawrence Goodwyn has studied democratic movements such as Solidarity in Poland, and he has written extensively about the populist movement in the United States that occurred during the end of the 19th century (what he calls "the largest democratic mass movement in American history"). Goodwyn concludes that democratic movements are initiated by people who are neither resigned to the status quo nor intimidated by established powers.

For Goodwyn, the cultural and psychological building blocks of democratic movements are individual self-respect and collective self-confidence. Without individual self-respect, we do not believe that we are worthy of power or capable of utilizing power wisely, and we accept as our role being a subject of power. Without collective self-confidence, we do not believe that we can succeed in wresting away power from our rulers.

Thus, it is the job of all of us - from parents, to students, to teachers, to journalists, to clergy, to psychologists, to artists and EVERYBODY who gives a damn about genuine democracy - to create individual self-respect and collective self-confidence.

2. Confront and Transform ALL Institutions that Have Destroyed Individual Self-Respect and Collective Self-Confidence

In "Get Up, Stand Up, " I detail 12 major institutional and cultural areas that have broken people's sprit of resistance, and all are "battlefields for democracy" in which we can fight to regain our individual self-respect and collective self confidence:

• Television
• Isolation and bureaucratization
• "Fundamentalist consumerism" and advertising/propaganda
• Student loan debt and indentured servitude
• Surveillance
• The decline of unions/solidarity among working people
• Greed and a "money-centric" culture
• Fear-based schools that teach obedience
• Psychopathologizing noncompliance
• Elitism via professional training
• The corporate media
• The US electoral system

As Ralph Waldo Emerson observed, "All our things are right and wrong together. The wave of evil washes all our institutions alike."

3. Side Each Day in Every Way With Anti-Authoritarians

We can recover our self-respect and strength by regaining our integrity. This process requires a personal transformation to overcome our sense of powerlessness and fight for what we believe in. Integrity includes acts of courage resisting all illegitimate authorities. We must recognize that in virtually every aspect of our life in every day, we can either be on the side of authoritarianism and the corporatocracy or on the side of anti-authoritarianism and democracy.

Specifically, we can question the legitimacy of government, media, religious, educational and other authorities in our lives, and if we establish that an authority is not legitimate, we can resist it. And we can support others who are resisting illegitimate authorities. A huge part of solidarity comes from supporting others who are resisting the illegitimate authorities in their lives. Walt Whitman had it right: "Resist much, obey little. Once unquestioning obedience, once fully enslaved."

4. Regain Morale by Thinking More Critically About Our Critical Thinking

While we need critical thinking to effectively question and challenge illegitimate authority - and to wisely select the best strategies and tactics to defeat the elite - critical thinking can reveal some ugly truths about reality, which can result in defeatism. Thus, critical thinkers must also think critically about their defeatism, and realize that it can cripple the will and destroy motivation, thus perpetuating the status quo.

William James (1842–1910), the psychologist, philosopher, and occasional political activist (member of the Anti-Imperialist League who, during the Spanish-American War, said, "God damn the US for its vile conduct in the Philippine Isles!") had a history of pessimism and severe depression, which helped fuel some of his greatest wisdom on how to overcome immobilization. James, a critical thinker, had little stomach for what we now call "positive thinking," but he also came to understand how losing belief in a possible outcome can guarantee its defeat. Antonio Gramsci (1891–1937), an Italian political theorist and Marxist activist who was imprisoned by Mussolini, came to the same conclusions. Gramsci's phrase "pessimism of the intellect, optimism of the will" has inspired many critical thinkers, including Noam Chomsky, to maintain their efforts in the face of difficult challenges.

5. Restore Courage in Young People

The corporatocracy has not only decimated America's labor union movement, it has almost totally broken the spirit of resistance among young Americans - an even more frightening achievement. Historically, young people without family responsibilities have felt most freed up to challenge illegitimate authority. But America's education system creates fear, shame and debt - all killers of the spirit of resistance. No Child Left Behind, Race to the Top and standardized testing tyranny results in the kind of fear that crushes curiosity, critical thinking and the capacity to constructively resist illegitimate authority.

Rebel teachers, parents, and students - in a variety of overt and covert ways - have already stopped complying with corporatocracy schooling. We must also stop shaming intelligent young people who reject college, and we must instead recreate an economy that respects all kinds of intelligence and education. While the corporatocracy exploits student loan debt to both rake in easy money and break young people's spirit of resistance, the rest of us need to rebel against student loan debt and indentured servitude. And parents and mental health professionals need to stop behavior-modifying and medicating young people who are resisting illegitimate authority.

6. Focus on Democracy Battlefields Where the Corporate Elite Don't Have Such a Large Financial Advantage

The emphasis of many activists is on electoral politics, but the elite have a huge advantage in this battlefield, where money controls the US electoral process.

By focusing exclusively on electoral politics at the expense of everything else, we: (1) give away power when we focus only on getting leaders elected and become dependent on them; (2) buy into the elite notion that democracy is all about elections; (3) lose sight of the fact that democracy means having influence over all aspects of our lives; and (4) forget that if we have no power in our workplace, in our education and in all our institutions, then there will never be democracy worthy of the name.

Thus, we should focus our fight more on the daily institutions we experience. As Wendell Berry said, "If you can control a people's economy, you don't need to worry about its politics; its politics have become irrelevant."

7. Heal from "Corporatocracy Abuse" and "Battered People's Syndrome" to Gain Strength

Activists routinely become frustrated when truths about lies, victimization and oppression don't set people free to take action. But when we human beings eat crap for too long, we gradually lose our self-respect to the point that we become psychologically too weak to take action. Many Americans are embarrassed to accept that, after years of corporatocracy subjugation, we have developed "battered people's syndrome" and what Bob Marley called "mental slavery." To emancipate ourselves and others, we must:

• Move out of denial and accept that we are a subjugated people.
• Admit that we have bought into many lies. There is a dignity, humility, and strength in facing the fact that, while we may have once bought into some lies, we no longer do so.
• Forgive ourselves and others for accepting the abuser's lies. Remember the liars we face are often quite good at lying.
• Maintain a sense of humor. Victims of horrific abuse, including those in concentration camps and slave plantations, have discovered that pain can either immobilize us or be transformed by humor into energy.
• Stop beating ourselves up for having been in an abusive relationship. The energy we have is better spent on healing and then working to change the abusive system; this provides more energy, and when we use this energy to provide respect and confidence for others, everybody gets energized.

8. Unite Populists by Rejecting Corporate Media's Political Divisions

The corporate media routinely divides Americans as "liberals,"
"conservatives" and "moderates," a useful division for the corporatocracy, because no matter which of these groups is the current electoral winner, the corporatocracy retains power. In order to defeat the corporatocracy, it's more useful to divide people in terms of authoritarians versus anti-authoritarians, elitists versus populists and corporatists versus anticorporatists.

Both left anti-authoritarians and libertarian anti-authoritarians passionately oppose current US wars in Afghanistan and Iraq, the Wall Street bailout, the PATRIOT Act, the North American Free Trade Agreement (NAFTA), the so-called "war on drugs" and several other corporatocracy policies. There are differences between anti-authoritarians but, as Ralph Nader and Ron Paul have together recently publicly discussed, we can form coalitions and alliances on these important power-money issues.

One example of an anti-authoritarian democratic movement (which I am involved in) is the mental health treatment reform movement, comprised of left anti-authoritarians and libertarians. We all share distrust of Big Pharma and contempt for pseudoscience, and we believe that people deserve truly informed choice regarding treatment. We respect Erich Fromm, the democratic-socialist psychoanalyst, along with Thomas Szasz, the libertarian psychiatrist, both passionate anti-authoritarians who have confronted mental health professionals for using dogma to coerce people.

9. Unite "Comfortable Anti-Authoritarians" and "Afflicted Anti-Authoritarians

This "comfortable-afflicted" continuum is based on the magnitude of pain that one has simply getting through the day. The term comfortable anti-authoritarian is not a pejorative one, but refers to those anti-authoritarians lucky enough to have decent paying and maybe even meaningful jobs, or platforms through which their voices are heard or social supports in their lives.

Many of these comfortable anti-authoritarians may know that there are millions of Americans working mindless jobs in order to hold on to their health insurance, or hustling two low-wage jobs to pay college loans, rent and a car payment, or who may be unable to find even a poorly paying, mindless job and are instead helplessly watching eviction or foreclosure and bankruptcy close in on them. However, unless these comfortable anti-authoritarians have once been part of that afflicted class - and remember what it feels like - they may not be able to fully respect the afflicted's emotional state.

The afflicted need to recognize that human beings often become passive because they are overwhelmed by pain (not because they are ignorant, stupid, or lazy), and in order to function at all, they often shut down or distract themselves from this pain. Some comfortable anti-authoritarians assume that people's inactions are caused by ignorance. This not only sounds and smells like elitism, it creates resentment for many in the afflicted class who lack the energy to be engaged in any activism. Respect, resources and anything that concretely reduces their level of pain is likely to be far more energizing than a scolding lecture. That's the lesson of many democratic movements, including the Great Populist Revolt.

10. Do Not Let Debate Divide Anti-Authoritarians

Spirited debate is what democracy is all about, but when debate turns to mutual antipathy and divides anti-authoritarians, it plays into the hands of the elite. One such divide among anti-elitists is over the magnitude of change that should be worked for and celebrated. On one extreme are people who think that anything is better than nothing at all. At the other extreme are people who reject any incremental change and hold out for total transformation.

We can better unite by asking these questions:

Does the change increase individual self-respect and collective self-confidence, and increase one's energy level to pursue even greater democracy? Or does it feel like a sellout that decreases individual self-respect and collective self-confidence, and de-energizes us?

Utilizing the criteria of increased self-respect and collective self-confidence, those of us who believe in genuine democracy can more constructively debate whether the change is going to increase strength to gain democracy or is going to take the steam out of a democratic movement. Respecting both sides of this debate makes for greater solidarity and better decisions.

To summarize, democracy will not be won without guts and solidarity. Risk-free green actions - such as shopping from independents, buying local, recycling, composting, consuming less, not watching television and so on - can certainly help counter a dehumanizing world.

However, revolutions that truly transform fundamental power inequities and enable us to feel like men and women rather than children and slaves require risk, guts and solidarity.


Thursday, 25 October 2012

Pineal Gland & Conditioning by Jeff Andrews

“In this particular body through which this, then, at present is emanating, the gland with its thread known as the pineal gland is the channel along which same then operates, and with the subjugation of the consciousness - physical consciousness - there arises, as it were, a cell from the creative forces within the body to the entrance of the conscious mind, or brain, operating along, or traveling along, that of the thread or cord as when severed separates the physical, the soul, or the spiritual body.” Edgar Cayce (288-29)

When you were an infant, you were born with a third eye fully open to witness the power and glory of the universe. From a subatomic perspective to the infinity of the galaxies, you were able to see life fully and appreciate its wisdom and bounty. But as you grew older, you were conditioned by parents, teachers, managers, peers, and everyone else around you to cover your third eye with layer upon l...
ayer of illusion and confusion, until your third eye was closed and your inner witness was in the dark, leaving you empty to the world’s wonders and the wisdom that your mystic sight could have delivered.

As an example of how conditioning can close the third eye and forever affect life and the perception of the world, imagine a mother holding a stuffed teddy bear out to a child and saying, "Look at the little bear, how cute and soft he is!" The child begins to recognize that shape and associate it with the name "teddy bear," and he is introduced to other concepts such as color, size, texture, etc. Thus, begins the child’s habit of replacing his own perceptions of the world with a process of labeling, reacting emotionally and physically to external suggestions, and mentally processing reactions and experiences according to how others perceive things. As he grows, the child gets farther and farther away from living life as it happens in the moment - the pure, unfiltered experience with which he was born. And upon reaching adulthood and beyond, the process of analyzing, comparing, judging, and discussing things with others results in being even less connected to the Now.

When you put shutters on a window, very little light comes through and the people inside the shuttered room can only imagine what might be outside, on the other side of the shuttered window. So they are in the dark about what life is really about outside the shutters. In the same way that it is impossible to describe an orange adequately to someone who has not ever seen the color orange and has never tasted citrus, a person cannot fully understand seeing with the third eye from simply reading about it or hearing someone else describe it. You must experience it yourself in order to realize the power of perception, awareness, and vision that can enhance and enrich your life if your third eye is open to the glories of the natural universe that were open to you as a child. But now, as an adult, you have the maturity to appreciate those wonders and understand them.

By Jeff Andrews

Magnetic Fields & Pineal Gland by Robert O Becker

"In light of this work, the fact that 10 hertz is also the dominant (alpha) frequency of the EEG in all animals becomes another significant bit of evidence that every creature is hooked up to the earth electromagenetically through its DC sy...
stem. Recently a group under Indian bio-physicist Sarada Subrahmnanyam reported that the human EEG not only responded to the micropulsations, but responded differently depending on which way the subject's head was facing in relation to the earth's field. Oddly enough, however, the head direction had no effect if the subject was a yogi.

The relationship has been conclusively proven by recent studies of the pineal gland. This tiny organ in the center of the cranium has turned out to be more than the vaguely defined "third eye" of the mystics. It produces melatonin and serotonin, two neurohormones that, among many other functions, directly control all of the biocycles. The lamprey, akin to the ancestor of all vertebrates, as well as certain lizards, has an actual third eye, close to the head's surface and directly responsive to light, intstead of the "blind" pineal found in other vertebrates. The eminent British anatomist J.Z. Young has recently shown that this organ controls the daily rhythm of skin color changes that these animals undergo.

For our story the most important point is that very small magnetic fields influence the pineal gland. Several research groups have shown that applying a magnetic field of half a gauss or less, oriented so as to add to or subtract from the earth's normal field, will increase or decrease production of pineal melatonin and serotonin. Other groups have observed physical changes in the gland's cells in response to such fields. The experiments were controlled for illumination, since it has been known for several years that shining a light on the head somehow modifies the gland's hormone output even though it's buried so deeply within the head in most common vertebrates that, as far as we know, it can't react directly to the light."

Robert O Becker

the Seventh Dimension of the Mothership by the Arcturians


Mytre has shared his experience of his Super-subconscious Being. We will now tell you about the Super-subconscious of our Mothership. Of course, all states of consciousness intermingle within the Being of our Mothership, but just as your brain has certain areas that are more inclined to generate certain states of consciousness, our Ship has certain areas that generate certain frequencies of emanation that encourage correlate states of consciousness.

The Super-subconscious, which represents your animal container, represents the container of our Ship. In other words, the Super-subconscious of the Mothership is responsible for all the maintenance of the ever-changing form of the Ship. Just as your animal body grows and changes in reaction to different energy fields, our Mothership’s living structure constantly changes according to different situations.

All information of all interactions and alterations of the Mothership since her multidimensional manifestation are stored in the Ship’s Super-subconscious. The Mothership that we have been discussing is actually a prototype, an archetypical example of most of our Motherships. Because this Ship has the most extensive Log of interactions with ascending realities, we have chosen Her to assist Gaia with Her Planetary Ascension.

We, the Arcturians, have no aging process, as we do not exist within time. Furthermore, we prefer to visit or use form rather than wear it. We think of form as you might think of a coat. You would not wear a coat unless it was necessary. Furthermore, while you are in the privacy of your home, you wear clothing that is comfortable. However, if guests come to visit, you may put on a special outfit.

In the same manner, while we are relaxing on the Ship, we are usually formless. However, we put on the appropriate form when we have visitors. The appropriate form is the version of our vaguely humanoid form that is most pleasing and comfortable to our guests. Hence, we usually wear a form with a head, body, two arms and two legs. On the other hand, when we have non-humanoid visitors, we often adapt our form to be similar to theirs.

Our Mothership can change shapes, and any of the shapes to which the Mothership has ever adapted is stored in Her Super-subconscious, which is generally located, but not limited to, the bottom areas of the Ship. We are aware that you are accustomed to thinking in terms of top and bottom. Hence, we will use them.

However, there are many occasions in which our Mothership takes on the form of an orb, and there is no bottom or top. In this case, your human thinking would conceive that the Super-subconscious is on the outside of the Ship. These assumptions are also incorrect, as outside and inside are human terms that do not apply to our reality.

We are happy to speak in terms in which you can create a mental picture. On the other hand, please realize that your sequential manner of thinking will greatly limit your ability to understand the fifth dimension and beyond. We are pleased to see that many of you are attempting to adapt to your innate, multidimensional thinking.

Just as our Super-subconscious carries the patterns of every form the Ship has ever taken, our Seventh Dimensional consciousness holds the patterns of every Oversoul of every reality with whom we have interfaced. Allow us to define Oversoul for you. The seventh dimension is the last dimension that engages form as a means of expression.

Beings of the eighth dimension and beyond, such as the Arcturians, lower their resonance into their seventh dimensional Oversoul and go through that closet to find every form they have ever worn in any reality. Of course, this is a metaphoric definition, but if we were to speak in our timeless, formless Light Language, you would not understand us.

Therefore, we must search the information in the brain of our embodied representative to translate our message. Our language is imagistic and is best translated in a metaphoric manner. However, these metaphors would not be technologically correct. Also, know that technology and creativity are the same term in our reality. With that explanation, we will say that the Oversoul is the Soul of the Soul.

From the “bottom” of the pyramid of incarnation into the physical, individuals merge into increasingly expanded perceptions of their SELF as their consciousness expands. For example, the base of the pyramid would be the Individual/Personal experience of SELF. Over 3D time, this experience of SELF expands into a Familial/Cultural experience of SELF, then into a National expression, then to a Planetary expression of SELF.

You, our Ascending Ones, have fully embraced your Planetary SELF and are preparing to perceive yourselves as your Galactic SELF. You have completed your cycle of polarized individuality and are ready to enter the fifth dimensional expression of your Galactic SELF.

There are Galactic Beings who are not yet fifth dimensional, and you can enjoy that experience as well. Your Galactic expression of SELF will eventually expand into your Universal expression of SELF.

Please remember that your Multidimensional SELF is infinitely alive and aware. Therefore, when we speak of your progression, we actually mean the progression of the primary focus of the consciousness of expression of your SELF to whom we are speaking. However, ALL of your expressions are simultaneously expanding into higher frequencies of reality or diminishing into lower frequency expressions of SELF, such as taking a new physical form.

Hence, as your individual focus of SELF expands into your Planetary SELF, your Planetary focus of consciousness expands into your Galactic SELF and your Galactic focus expands into your Universal SELF. Your higher dimensional expanded SELF can easily perceive and interact with your lower dimensional versions of SELF.

Therefore, you will not necessarily lose contact with your Personal expression of SELF when Gaia ascends. However, just as you can see a rock, but the rock does not see you, your lower dimensional expressions of SELF can only communicate with their higher expressions by expanding their consciousness to encompass that frequency of reality.

The lower dimensional components of your SELF are still your Multidimensional SELF, but YOU have raised your primary focus into the higher dimensions of reality. Please remember, that these expressions are NOT lined up in a third dimensional manner. They are all interwoven and intermingled within the NOW of the ONE.

You will find that as your consciousness expands into the higher frequencies of expression, your third dimensional thinking will become increasingly cumbersome and somewhat obsolete. Hence, you will begin to forget how to think in that old-fashioned manner and unconsciously think from your Multidimensional SELF.

The side effect of this experience might make you think that you are getting dementia or some other earthly condition. The truth is that you are expanding beyond ALL 3D earthly conditions, and are discovering that your old way of thinking is exceedingly cumbersome.

Why would you need a buggy whip when you are driving an automobile? Therefore, why would you need a sequential language of separate words when you think within the limitless, timeless NOW?

There are about two of your months left for this cycle of focusing your consciousness into higher and higher frequencies of expression. However, once your focus is firmly planted in your Planetary Expression of SELF, you will be aligned with Gaia’s time.

Gaia is expanding her Focus into Her fifth dimensional SELF. Hence, Her polarities of past and future are collapsing into the NOW, and 3D time is closing. Once you are fully aligned with Gaia’s NOW, there will not be time as you know it. You will know time, but not as passing moments in which you must do something or be somewhere. You will begin to adjust your thinking into the limitless, timeless NOW.

Your Super-subconscious animal self, who is very comfortable with the NOW, will begin to fulfill the “ideals” that are passed into it via your Oversoul. An ideal differs from an idea in that an ideal is a Divine Concept that your consciousness has been able to embrace. You have been able to embrace these concepts because you have expanded your focus from your deepest, Super-subconscious animal self into your seventh dimensional Oversoul SELF.

Your Super-conscious holds the codes and patterns of all your earthly incarnations. This component of your being steadily opens once you have focused your attention on the HERE and NOW Beingness of your animal self. Your Oversoul holds the codes and patterns of all the incarnations you have experienced in your current Galaxy.

This component of your being steadily opens once you have expanded your focus into your Galactic SELF. With this expansion of consciousness, you will have completed the Alpha/Omega of your Planetary SELF, and be totally prepared to release all components of your denser, human form.

All these processes of Ascension overlap so that our Ascending Ones will always have a solid, familiar format, as well as a perceivable potential locked in to your consciousness. Hence, the Ascension process is much like crossing a rushing stream by walking from one stone to the next.

You start on the shore, and then place one foot on a stepping stone. You do not place your second foot on the next stone until you are certain that it will hold your weight. Then you will keep your foot on that stone while you test the next stone with your other foot.

All of our Ascending Ones have expanded their consciousness beyond their Individual/Personal SELF. However, some of them are still attached to their Familial/Cultural SELF, which will keep them from releasing their perceived family, cultural and national obligations and/or attachments.

There is nothing wrong with maintaining this attachment, but when you allow your family, culture and nation to hold you back from your process of Ascension, you are not able to assist with Planetary Ascension. Not participating in Planetary Ascension greatly limits your process of Personal Ascension, as Gaia is offering a free ride into the fifth dimensional expression of reality.

However, those who remain attached to the third/fourth dimensional concepts of family, culture and nations will not be able to adhere their consciousness to the Unity Consciousness of Planetary Ascension. Within Unity Consciousness, every being is of the same ability and power.

In fact many children – and even infants – are more aligned with Ascension then their parents, who have had a lifetime of brainwashing. Cultures and Nations divide Gaia’s planet and restrict Unity Consciousness to Family, Cultural or National Consciousness. To catch the wave of Planetary Ascension you need to blend your consciousness into the immense Flow of Planetary Ascension.

Those who maintain the 3D hooks of family, culture and nation (which include the religious and scientific 3D thinking) will remain in the illusion of third dimensional Earth for as long as that hologram is running. Therefore, they will have time to expand their consciousness if they choose.

Also, once the final remnants of darkness are expelled from the body of Gaia, the cycles of fear that hold the third dimensional attachments in place will be completed. This fear is very close to being vanquished largely because of you, the Ascending Ones, who have become Masters of your Emotions and expelled fear from your consciousness.

Fear is not alive like love. Love, especially unconditional love, is a living creative force seeking a being through which it can be expressed. Fear, on the other hand, is the “Grim Reaper” who cuts back the old and dying so that the new can be created and nurtured by love. Hence, fear is a necessary component of a third/fourth dimensional reality that is bound to a planetary existence.

Since people, families and nations cannot leave the planet in search of a new home in the ever-expanding Galaxy, members of the planet must die so that there is room for expansion into a new way of being. Unfortunately, fear became embedded so deeply in the consciousness of many incarnated ones that they killed others to assure that they would have enough.

Predation for possession and power is the result of the Earthling’s Draconian DNA. This DNA is very strong and powerful, as well as highly intelligent and decisive. However, if the human carries too much fear, they can easily move into the kill or be-killed mindset of that DNA. On the other hand, through Mastering your thoughts and emotions, you can use that DNA to assist you – rather than to control you, or others.

Becoming the Master of your Energy allows you conscious transit into your seventh dimensional Oversoul, which is the storehouse of ALL your Galactic knowledge, gifts, experiences and incarnations. Just as the Super-subconscious holds the codes and patterns for your Planetary SELF, the Oversoul holds the codes and patterns for your Galactic Self.

It is through the activating of these codes that you can consciously connect with us, your Galactic Family. When you meet, commune and intertwine with one of your Galactic expressions of SELF, you will regain your Galactic perception of reality. Many of you will enter into intimate relationship with the YOU that is holding a higher dimensional expression of your SELF.

Of course, you have many expressions of your Galactic SELF, just as you have many expressions of your human self. When you can fall into the Flow and surrender into the FEEL of your Galactic SELF you can remember how to live two, simultaneous realities. With practice, you will be able to experience more and more simultaneous realities within the NOW of the ONE.

In this manner, you will regain connection with your Galactic Expression of SELF. Your Galactic expressions are aligned with you in the NOW and offering you a hand up into the fifth dimension. Every experience that you can remember having with your SELF in the fifth dimension and beyond is a gift that we ask you to share with the members of your Ascending reality.

We will allow you time to ponder what we have shared so far, and return shortly so that Mytre can share his first experience of the Seventh Dimensional Consciousness of our Mothership.

The Arcturians

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

Reincarnation by Lawrence Spencer




However, if you are reincarnated (take up a new body) every 40 years, or so, on the average, how many lifetimes might you have lived on Earth? According to the Top Secret Military transcripts published in the book ALIEN INTERVIEW, large numbers of Immortal Spiritual Beings (IS-BEs) were delivered to Earth beginning about 12,000 years ago, and continuously since that time. Assuming that you were one of the original "prisoners" sentenced to live on Earth, may could have already lived as many of 300 lifetimes on Earth! (more or less, depending on when you arrived, how long each body lived, how frequently you got a new body, etc.).

Halloween (All Halloweds' Day) is an observance and celebration of The Spirit of Our Ancestors. Well, what if WE ARE our ancestors? According to the principle of Reincarnation we are really honoring ourselves, and all of the other Immortal Spiritual Beings who have inhabited, and continue to inhabit and re-inhabit bodies on Earth. And, let's not forget the multitude of Spiritual Beings who inhabit all Life Forms on Earth -- whales, porpoises, elephants, wolves and horses, for example. The Spirits, who manifest themselves as Ghosts, Poltergeists, Demons, Apparitions, Angels, Gods, and Disembodied Souls may very well be our Brothers and Our Sisters.

Let's honor them with the reverence and dignity they deserve.

Tuesday, 23 October 2012

The Binding of Time

The Binding of Time

In the shop I saw the shop guy with a moustache like he used to have in the previous incarnation.  He is clean shaven but I saw him briefly through the veil. The new shop girl I know her too from before. A cycle ago. I realized that the number of people in the world today is made not only of souls of animals from their previous lifetimes and souls of humans from previous lives – all the same souls, but wearing human body.

Souls from all over different places in time are gathered here at this time. The man over there; he was last on the planet 200 years ago. The woman over there, she was last on the planet 400 years ago. This is how it works.

Once, several years ago, I saw the hologram of tree’s. I had been taking White powder Gold at the time, Ormus. The hologram of trees is the lightbody pattern and it is five times bigger than the tree’s physical body. Because we do not have 100% maximum nutrition therefore the physical world is stunted. It decays at a faster rate than the lightbody pattern. We would be ten feet tall if we achieved it, slender and elongated forms. CS Lewis used the word Seroni to describe this in his book Out of the Silent Planet.

I spoke with my neighbour who told me that her mother would be over a hundred years old by now. I remembered about how if we had optimum 100% health at all times we would live for a few hundred years. The body is a lesser form than the ideal of the lightbody, the hologram.

The lightbody is closer connected to the soul. It is our optimum form. Therefore the lightbody is set to live for several hundred years although the physical body does not very often achieve this. After the physical body has passed, the lightbody is still encoded into the reality grid. This is what one form of ghosts are. Our lives are dealing with overlaps of the past. The energy of the ancestors affects us, affects places. This can be attuned to by the sensitive.

In the car I stared at my hands, five fingers, I am in human form now. I woke up somewhat. I was a different form previously. It is the grade 5 coffee awakening me to this, very clean java. I am not on Ormus now but the frequency I am riding at this time has achieved this particular integration and insight.

Physical particles follow the form of the lightbody. As far as the path of a life is concerned, the medicine journey, Ka, this is the weave we activate as we pass through the grid. Particle physics attempt to grow toward the perfect form of the holographic lightbody. All the world is made of this, it is what holds it together. Because ‘mass = time’, the physics of the material world are such that time is created by the flow of physical particles attempting to achieve the lightbody form.

The souls repeat appear here because of resonance. Only when the internal dynamics of the souls own energy shifts to a different configuration, the harmonic changes it is no longer applicable to return to the frequency of the manifestation of 'now'; it may relocate to higher vibrational dimensions. The future is a higher vibrational dimension. This gives the illusion of linear progress as observed from within the physical/time based structure. 

Monday, 22 October 2012

Vino Draco

I bought a bottle of south Australian red wine today. 

I don't drink often. 

I drank (a small number) of bottles of whiskey,
when I had superbug alien man flu that lasted 8 weeks. 

Before that I drank some cider when I was seeing friends this time last year. 

Before that, several years of sobriety. 

And before that, 
a dream in which the pixies basically told me straight: 
get off the booze and eat fish&fruit or I would be fucked up for good. 

Before that I drank quite a lot of Morgans Spiced Rum as a method of soothing the desperate pains of giving up chain smoking spliffs for many long years. During which there was a phase of cider addiction when I was part of a music production obsessed street crew.  

  It has been probably 15 years since I was able to drink red wine
because of the association I have with it and my ex from art school
who I deeply passionately adored. 
It was a magickal relationship. 

We used to drink it a lot. 
Not quite constantly, but frequently. 
 She was a brilliant artist and a great dancer. 
We traveled together and studied together
and tearing us apart was a cruel reptilian christian thing for the older generation to do. 
It has taken me this long to recover from it. 

Buying the wine is a sign that I am. 
This blog isn't supposed to be about that though, or alcohol. 

This blog is intended to be about Art. 

It has been 15 years since I last really got into drawing enough to become focused on a project, caring enough about it, to see it through to wherever it naturally wants to lead me. 
A few scribbles here and there but nothing for real, until now. 
I haven't felt like an artist since I left art school. 

The dragon at the top of the page is one resolution. 
The drawing below is called forth from imagination. 

Monday, 15 October 2012

Genesis & Neofeminism

Genesis is a Welsh Assembly backed organisation for funding people into college who otherwise would not be able to.

Elonwy: "we cannot pay for a full CBR check until you have paid for a basic CBR check."
Joe: "I require a full CBR check to be allowed on the course, why waste time and money on a light CBR test first? It is pointless."
Elonwy: "I will not back down."

Estelle: "yes I agree that does make sense about not requiring a light CBR check but you have missed the deadline now anyway because you didn't sort this out before now."
Joe: "I tried to; I complained 2 months ago about Elonwy playing games and your response was to ignore it."
Estelle: "I remember, that is why I am helping you now. I hoped it would resolve itself."
Joe: "I am still waiting for the light CBR check from the police. I have missed the deadline now."
Estelle: "I'll send Ella to see you."

Ella: "what have the college said?"
Joe: "the college CBR check woman said they can't accept anybody on the course until they do a CBR check although the course tutor says last year they had a few who did late CBR checks and some of them were allowed on the course even though they have something on their CBR. One girl applied twice for CBR checks and nothing ever came back either time, they still had her on the course too. Netmums.com is the best resource on the internet for any info about this and it appears that it is discretionary. The notion of 'pass or fail' a CBR check is a gray area -discretionary- unless there's something really nasty shows up."
Ella: "we're in a catch 22 then because we can't pay for a CBR check until the college accept you on the course. Also we need to do a separate CBR check for every different place that you have work placement in which is expensive."
Joe: "if that is true then it applies to everyone and nobody would be able to do the course and the course would be shut down for lack of numbers since half of the people in there are receiving genesis funding without this problem. By strange coincidence all of them are female."
Ella: "why do you even want to be on the course?"
Joe: "staff at the family center pointed out that I have a natural aptitude with kids. I've done the level 1 training, Webster-Stratton and handling kids behaviour programs and the tutors said the same, that I'm good with kids. They encouraged me to take it further, at one time there was talk of offering me work if I get the qualification. Half the kids in the family center run over to see me, some of the little ones call me daddy because they accept me as 'a' daddy; which is proof that the kids trust me. Its awesome but it makes a few of the mams jealous. I'm glad of this being in a public setting it where this has been observed. One woman has been telling her son that I'm his daddy she means biological and I've had to put a stop to that, its confusing for him and for my own son."


Genesis is a Welsh Assembly backed organisation for funding people into college who otherwise would not be able to.
first published on facebook 14.10.2012
EYE OF SAURON LOGO Dialogue 1 8.11.2012 I put in a formal complaint about my Genesis officer, and her boss just rang to tell me they're fast-tracking me through the system, getting me work placement and fudging paperwork to cover missed deadlines. Wow! The boss was nice she remembered I'd complained before so she took me seriously this time. I feel guilty for pressuring them. I mentioned neo-fem prejudice against males in my complaint and they've crapped themselves. It depends what my crb check says and if they play hardball back at me about it, since it is discretionary. Next issue is childcare for my son on the days I have him unless I can sort it with his mam somehow to alter our rosta. 11.11.2012 Had a meeting with Genesis today and the bottom line is No, for er any excuse we can find and when that doesn't work its the other excuse. They're going to pay my petrol to send me to carmarthen to do art therapy instead and say they'll fund me to do childcare next year. If a group of men did this to a woman there would be an inquest. This is neo-feminism LOUD AND CLEAR men do NOT do childcare. The fact that there are equally as many women who are abusive as there are men is ignored because women are dominant, superior and in control. It is a big social problem because when men act like women act, they go to jail. I have to teach my son to survive in the world he lives in which means being honest about the world we live in. What happens in my experience is that the Brotherhood identifies the ringleader of the bitch pack and leaves her dying gratuitously as a warning to the rest of them; my ex's other ex is doing time for exactly that, it is how close I am to the male response to neo-fem manipulation in wales where I live. Nobody wants that world, nobody. At least I have an art project theme for my art therapy course now. Highly executed art is preserved and promoted as social commentary for many generations especially when it creates powerful emotional response. Dialogue 2 11.11.2012 I had a meeting with genesis today, they are going to fund me to get involved with an art group in carmarthen for this year and then do the childcare course next year. Its really difficult for men to get into childcare. Its proved that women are equally as abusive as men but because women are controlling the industry they put men through hell. We now live in a society where mens lib is necessary. Do you know the words mysandry or misogyny? Anyway... Possibly I won't be coming into the lessons again this year. Well if men treated a woman this way there'd be an inquest. I know that if I go to the Welsh Assembly causing trouble for what is otherwise a really good entity in society, I'd end up sidelined and discredited so I have to play their game. There's a reason for everything even if we don't know what it is at the time. Dialogue 3 8.11.2012 I'm back on the childcare course (again) this week at least. The abuser-disguised-as-inept-or-possibly-so-inept-it-appears-as-abusive woman is off my back :)smile 11.11.2012 In class yesterday, teacher discussing Trust with regard to confidentiality. The syllabus says; "you trust an authority figure for example a doctor because of their profession." I spoke up; "I disagree! You trust because of intuition. Someone doing a job does not automatically qualify trust!' I am having such trouble from the system because I am a man doing childcare. Extra red tape to put me off and delay until the deadline is gone. So there in a room full of women being indoctrinated to act without thinking and to reinforce the system over common sense -it is a male who raises the point that trust is instinct, it is not a given. Class then woke up and talked about malpractise, networks of abuse inherent in the system eg: google holly graig, the difference between what the tv says about julian assange/wikileaks to what free media says about it, etc. All the feminist material that women are intuitive and men are logical has just been proved to be a load of shit. So there is a reason I am in the class, even if the women running the show don't want me to be there! The teacher herself is lovely she's a common sense supporter too. Meeting with genesis; they are going to fund me to get involved with "arts for wellbeing" starting January instead so I have a better foundation in art therapy before they start me again on the childcare program next year. This comes after 6 months of asking, why do I need to pay myself to do a light crb check when Genesis pay for a full crb mandatory to do childcare? Doing a light crb check is pointless and nobody else on the course (all women) had to do a light crb check first. Why am I so special? I complained about my contact to her boss and her boss response was to ignore the complaint. Now I have missed the deadlines for this year, however the boss did finally admit that asking me to do a light crb check was pointless and she can see my point. I still have not received crb check results because now there is no need for them to be made, thus saving genesis 40quid.